Holding on (The walking dead/Daryl fanfiction)

Chapter 38

*Jamie's POV*

We've been up and walking for a long time, the last thing we have all eaten was the dogs that Sasha killed and that was a day ago.

I was walking slowly, we all were, I bit my chapped lips until they were bleeding

"Here Jai, drink some water" Glenn offered me water after trying to give some to Maggie but she refused

"I'm good" I said quietly, Glenn looked at me then then sighed I walked over to Abraham who had alcohol in his hand, I grabbed it and took a long drink and then handed it back and gave him a nod

"Tell Rick I'm gonna go look for some water" Daryl said to Abraham and he left, I debated if I should follow him, i decided to and I followed him until he sat down by a tree and not to far from the tree was a little barn, I ignored the barn. I was about to show myself wen he lit a cigarette and then put the end of the cigarette to his hand and burned himself, he barely winced at the pain

I closed my eyes and took a breath, I hated to see someone hurt themselves. Then as I started to walk away I heard him cry, I turned around and silently fell to the ground against a tree, I felt the tears that threatened to spill out of my eyes. I've never heard him cry, he's always wanted to be, needed to be the strongest but sometimes it's hard to pretend, all the pain will just come out and never stop.

I got up wiped my tears and head back to the group, when I got back, I showed them the empty water bottle I had and shook my head, then they showed me the full water bottles on the ground with a note saying 'from a friend'. A few minutes later Daryl came into view and Rick showed him the paper

"What else are we gonna do" Tara said

"Not this, we don't know who left it" Rick said

"If it's a trap were already in it, but I for one indeed think it is from a friend" Eugene said

"What if they put something in it" carol said

Then Eugene grabbed a water bottle

"What are you doing" Rosita said

"Quality assurance" Eugene said and was about to take a drink when Abraham knocked it out of his hands and water splashed on Eugene

"We can't" Rick said

Then light thunder started to rumble and it started raining. Some splashed around and laid in the rain some, like me, Daryl, Maggie and Sasha just stood there. Gabriel started to say sorry to the lord

"Everybody get bags, anything you can find" Rick said and everyone started to put the water bottle out to catch rain water. Then the thunder got way louder and it started to rain harder

"Let's keep moving" Rick yelled over the thunder

"There's a barn" Daryl said and we ran to the barn we cleared it and ran in.

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The storm was still bad and we had a small fire in the corner, me, Glenn, carol, Daryl, michonne, Rick and My dad were around the fire and the rest were either sleeping or sitting by themselves, I was sharpening sticks with my knife when carol talked

"He's gonna be alright" she said to Rick who was looking at Carl and Judith

"I used to feel sorry for kids who have to grow up in this, but I think I got it wrong, growing up in the world isn't easy for them" Rick said

"This isn't the world" michonne said

"It might be" my dad said

"That's giving up" michonne said

"Until we see otherwise, this is what we are gonna live with. When I was a kid I asked my grandpa once if he ever killed any Germans in the war, he wouldn't answer, he said that it was grown up stuff. So I asked if the Germans ever killed him but he got real quiet. He said that he was dead right when he stepped into enemy territory, he told himself get up rest in peace now go to war, he made it out alive. And that's the trick of it I think, we do what we need to do then we get to live. But no matter what we find in D.C I know we'll be ok, because this is how we survive, we tell ourselves that we...are the walking dead." Rick said, I looked at him

"But we ain't them" Daryl said and got up

"We're not them" Rick said and Daryl walked away

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I couldn't sleep, hell no one could, I watched as Daryl paced back and forth, the barn doors were chained together but still were moving from the wind, I saw Daryl look In between the doors then hold them closed, the doors were being pushed in then I heard walker moans, me and Maggie rushed up at the same time and helped hold them then sasha then the rest noticed and ran to us and helped hold the barn doors shut, our feet were slipping from the mud and the wind made the walkers have more leverage, this is going to be another long night.