Scars of our love n.h [editing]

chapter 3- Niall?

"You look beautiful" Niall smiles and I feel my cheeks turning red. I can feel him looking at my arms, remembering the day we met.

"She does, doesn't she?" She almost squeals, I repeat, squeals.

"Thanks Niall, thanks Jessie." wait, how the hell did he know Jessie? And what was he doing here? I look to Jessie to see her surprised face.

"First, the dress is perfect for you and second how the hell do you know each other?" I think of a way to explain it but Niall beats me to it.

"We were at the same plane, and her house is near mine but now that I think of it I don't even know her name" He says hiding the run details and giving me a smile

"My name is Melanie, and how do you know each other?" 

"Well... Niall is from our school, he missed the day because... why did you miss the day?" She asks confused.

"oh my mom... you know..." He rambles.

"oh.." she simply says, Awkward.

"Ermm... okay I am going to dress my clothes!" I walk back into the cabin but someone grabs my wrist.

"hum wait... you are going to buy it, right? Y-you look perfect on it." I see him blushing when he realizes that his hand is still on my wrist, letting me go, he is so shy.

"No, I don't think it fits me well, maybe later."

"Take it please! You look amazing" Jessie looks me in the eye dead serious, doesn't she see it? That it simply doesn't fit.

"Sorry guys but I am sure it will look better in other person, I won't spend my money in something that doesn't look good on me." When my dad died, all his money and stuff passed to me, I won't have any financial problems for at least 10 years but I have to be careful with it and it simply doesn't fucking fit. 

"I am hungry! I should've eaten too, can we go back to the restaurants? Niall you wanna come?" Jessie asks Niall and he nods "Let's go then!" Jessie looks to me while saying this to see if I agree with Niall's presence, I give her a smile and she smiles back.

"You go ordering, I will be there in a minute" Niall says and then disappears into the shop.

"Oh there comes Niall" Jessie says looking over my shoulder and then filling her mouth with pasta again. Disgusting.

"Do me company?" Niall asks and I follow him to the restaurants part, there Jessie couldn't hear us, I look around there are a lot of happy families, cute young couples and old ladies talking with each other, I look at a family they seem so happy, then I notice that Niall is looking at me.

"Do you want a picture, it lasts longer!" I smile when he blushes.

"Melanie... look! I am sorry I didn't know what to say so I ran away from my problems like I always do. But I want to help you!" he takes my hand and gives it a little squeeze. What the fuck dude?

I shake him off "I am not one of your problems and you don't know anything about me, you don't know how I feel, I don't need any help I am FINE! And I definitively don't need your pity! Get your shit together." I walk away and go straight home I remember Jessie and send her a text  saying that I wasn't feeling well again and that I went home and that was the truth, well...

I arrive home and go straight to bed to try to sleep but I can't stop thinking about my conversation with Niall, maybe I was too harsh on him but I am fine, I am ok. I just have my problems like everyone else even if don't like my body. That's why I used to cut, in part to punish myself and other to feel alive, I've been trough very dark times.