Scars of our love n.h [editing]

Chapter 15- The new kid

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Heart broken, ugly, lonely, sad, depressed, alone, angry, self conscious, scared, discussing, a mess, broken, stupid, weak that's all I am. I'm no good to anyone. of course she doesn't love me. it's impossible to love me. i'm so stupid. why did I believe that the perfect girl would be in love with me? i'm no one. i'm broken as shit and one can fix me.

I get dressed really quick with a grey v-neck shirt and black jeans. I drink my coffee along with a ham sandwich. I hope Mel is eating her breakfast too, she never eats, she is so skinny... stop! Niall, stop!

I shake my head to make my thoughts with her beautiful face to fly away, it's too much to handle in the morning.

Changing schools was hard, packing  everything and move to school campus wasn't easy at all, but I think is going to be good to me, getting away of everything, of her.

I walk into school, I am so nervous, it's my first day so I have to talk with the director first.

I walk in a room with some old ladies working behind desks, one of them, Susan, it's what the pin in her shirt says, walks towards me.

"Good morning, how can I help you?" she says so slowly that I wonder if she has some problem.

"oh yeah... good morning, I am new here, on the phone I was told to meet the director before I went to classes"

"follow me please" I follow her to another room and before I noticed I am in front of the school's director.

"Hi, are you the new student? let me see..." He searches something in a pile of papers "oh here it is, Mr. Niall Horan, am I right?" I nod with my head "So, as you know this school is really strict with rules, if you break one of them, you will be out of here in the next minute" woah, I wasn't expecting this, but I nod my head "We accepted you in the middle of the year because you are really good in athletics, so I want a trophy in my desk till the end of the year, I know you can win the contests and the school can win a lot of money with you, do you understand?"

"Yes sir, I will do my best, but..."

"Save it! I want a trophy, I won't tolerate any bad behaviour, now go to classes, I hope you like our school" The man says with a stupid forced smile and I nod, ready to leave the room."Oh, I forgot here it is your papers, oh lucky guy we didn't have more rooms and the physics teacher offered his house, it's an excellent opportunity to train everyday and every night!" Something tells me that the fact that I have to share a house with the physics teacher isn't just a pure coincidence, I quickly leave the room and start to run into the class room.

I am running like crazy, but it calms me down the wind buzzing in my ears, that's why I love to run, I feel like nothing can catch me, like I am free, like I don't have the principal of my school trying to choose my future, like I am not broken, like Melanie is here, like my life has been great. Someone bumps into me and I fall on the ground.

"Ouch! Watch were you going, damn it! my leg" I scream to the person that bumped into me as I quickly get up, but I am pushed into the ground again"

"Did you just yelled at me looser?" I look to the guy that pushed me to the ground and I immediately regret of saying anything, he is big and looks like he wants to kill me "He yelled at me, didn't he?" He laughs while asking his friends.

"Go Trevor, knock him down, who the hell does he think he is?" Another guy says and looks at me ,like I was just something he stepped on.

"Stop! Trevor! What do you think you are doing to your team mate?" The director, let me remember his name... John, the director John says and I immediately freeze, Trevor and me? in the same team?

"What? This shit is running in our team? Look at him! I bet he can't even run 100 meters, he looks like a chicken!" Trevor screams in anger.

"He can run, a lot actually, now go back to classes!" The director says and in the minute he turns his backm, Trevor grabs my t-shirt and pulls me up ready to punch me in the face "Trevor, if he is not able to run, you will get expelled out of the team"

Trevor smiles with all his big white teeth " I wouldn't go that far, John." He says and let's me go while the director returns to his office, what? he calls the director by the name? I get up, the crowd that was watching us fades away and the "bad ass" walks away while laughing and his friend high five him.

"Hum, hey I am Julie, are you ok?" A beautiful ginger girl asks me while she helps me clean the dirt from my shirt.

"Yeah, my leg hurts a little bit, but I will be good tomorrow!" I say calmly and she gives me a pity look.

"The director of the school is Trevor's uncle that's why he does everything he wants here, he never gets punished so he is mean to everyone." She says while shaking her head, like she couldn't believe what this world has become.

"Oh that explains why he treated him by his name, I am Niall by the way!"

"Oh, I love your accent!" She says and I smile, I actually hate it." So let's grab a coffee, we are too late to class anyway" I follow her to her car and we drive to a Starbucks.

"So tell me more about you!" She says excitedly, think in something to tell, I don't trust her enough to tell something important about me.

"I am Irish and I love to run, it makes me feel free" I tell her slowly and she smiles, encouraging me to tell her more.

"Oh I am so gay! Running makes me feel free! Look at me!" Trevor makes fun of me, what the hell is he doing here? Fuck. This day is getting worse every second. I get up and walk to him.

"Please, stop with that, I did nothing to you!" I say and I immediately feel my jaw being punched and his friends laughing like someone has told them the best joke in the world, they are pathetic, but I am more...

"You are a jerk!" Julie says to him and takes me to her car again "I am so sorry, let me take you home, do you have ice in your house?" I nod and giver her the address while trying to push back the tears. I.am. so. fucking. weak.

We enter in my house and Julies runs to the refrigerator and takes the ice pack, I put it in my face and I wince in pain.

"Please leave me alone, thanks for your help, but you should go to school" I want to be alone, I want to trow myself a pity party and cry.

"but.."

"please go, thanks for your help" I repeat

"But Niall.."

"JUST GO!" I scream and she leaves, my body trembles with the loud noise of the door, I fall on my knees, still holding the ice pack, my body trembles and I try to hold myself together but I am already so broken.

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I am so sorry for not updating at all, school has been nuts, work and more work, I am so tired, my life= drama 

Anyway, thanks for all the support, I wish I could hug every single one of you.

I hope you like it,

Guida xx