When the day met the night Part 2

Chapter Eight

They were all almost ready to leave, their bags were packed, Emma was running around on the phone organizing last minute details. Shannon was playing catch with Bluebell on the patio and Jared and I stood in the lounge with our arms around one another. "I don't want to go" he said quietly holding me against his chest. I nodded, I didn't trust myself to speak right now. "Will you be okay here?" he asked, he put a hand under my chin lifting up my face to look at him. It was the first time that he would be leaving us since we moved here and he was worried. I nodded again, a single tear rolled down my cheek. "I should have just postponed these dates, you said you would be okay" he said frustrated. "I'm okay, I'm just emotional, please don't worry I'll be fine" I said wiping my cheeks and finally finding my voice. "Okay we're ready to go!" Emma called out from the front entrance. I heard Jared exhale loudly. Shannon and Bluebell appeared, she had her arms around his neck and her face was buried in his shoulder. "She's crying" he mouthed with a frown, my heart dropped. She was going to miss them even more than I would. "Come on sweetheart, come say bye to daddy" said Jared holding out his arms. Shannon kissed her cheeks and she looked up at him, kissing him back. She held out her arms and Jared grabbed her hugging him to him. I heard her start to sob quietly, he shushed her gently, stroking her hair and whispering to her how much he'd miss her. "Sorry guys, no pressure, but.." said Emma appearing in the doorway. Jared looked up and glared at her, she held up her hands, "sorry" she said apologetically. "It's okay, come on, let's walk to the door and say bye" I said quietly, trying to hold it together for her. "Don't go daddy" she sobbed. His face fell, "Bluebell, I'll be back really really soon, I love you sweetheart" he managed to say, he looked miserable as he spoke, looking between me and Shannon. I decided I needed to step in, I could see Emma was about to flip. "Okay come on daddy has to go, we will talk to him later" I said touching her arm. I grasped her around the waist gently, prying her away from him. She quickly wrapped her arms around my neck and started to wail. Jared looked stricken, "go, she'll be okay" I said forcing a smile. He kissed me quickly, "bye baby, I love you" he whispered against my lips. I nodded, he quickly kissed her head and headed to the door. She lifted up her head to look at him, her face streaked with tears. He stopped and made to come back but I held up a hand, "go, just go, you'll only make it worse" I said firmly. He turned on his heel and walked out. I quickly shut the door on them, not wanting her to see them driving away. That went for me too.

We kept up with the shows through social media, photos were posted continuously, of the shows, of them. Lucy and her girlfriend Kate had come to stay with us, it was great to have company around and Bluebell loved them both and their presence distracted her from thoughts of Jared. They were due back in four days, I couldn't wait to see him, Bluebell was constantly wanting to see photos, to phone and FaceTime, I had to try and manage the time difference so we wouldn't wake him up. It was ten in the morning our time, I knew it would be a good time to phone as he'd be back from the last show, we were all sitting in the kitchen having a late breakfast. "Ring him" she said impatiently, "okay okay just hang on" I said, I punched in his number and it started ringing. He usually got it on the first few rings but it kept going this time, finally a voice. A female voice. "Hi" I heard, I looked at my phone to make sure I'd dialed the right number, "who is this?" I said slowly, "this is Ingrid" she said snidely. I could hear other voices and laughing in the background. "Why have you got Jared's phone?" I said trying to stay calm, "I'm just answering it, hang on he's just coming out of the bathroom" she said giggling. I was shaking in shock, "why are you holding my phone, give it to me" I heard Jared's voice say, suddenly he spoke, "hello", I couldn't talk for a moment, my anger was threatening to choke me. I quickly walked into the lounge so Bluebell couldn't hear me. "Im sorry, I didn't realize you had company" I finally managed to stutter, "Harper, what do you mean company? No, no, it's not what you think!!" he said quickly. "Fuck you" I hissed. "Please just listen to me" he pleaded, but I didn't want to listen, there was nothing he could say that would excuse this. "Don't bother, I'll leave you, so you can go back and entertain them" I said coldly and hit end. "Harper what's wrong?" said Lucy quietly, she'd followed me in and had seen my face turn pale. I waved my hand at her, unable to speak. My mind was a tornado, I quickly punched in another number. "Hey Harper", said Emma, "Emma, I need you to go to Jared's room, right now" I said urgently, "okay, hang on he's just across the hall, what's wrong?" she said curiously, "just do it please" I said ignoring her question. I could hear her opening her door and then she knocked on what I knew was Jared's door, "what?!" I heard him shout. "He's here, sorry Jared, I'm just... " she started to say, "go in, who's in the room?" I said quickly, "who are you talking to?" I heard him ask her. "Hang on" she told him, "Emma! Answer me, who's in there?" I practically yelled, "okay, okay, um Jamie, his pal and a couple of girls I don't know who they are" she said cautiously. She had suddenly realized why I was getting her to do this, "what's Jared wearing?" I said, my voice almost a whisper now. "Just a bath robe.." she said, I could hear the dismay in her voice. "Thanks Emma, that's all I needed to know" "I'm sure it's not, there's nothing .... " she said quickly, "who is it?" I heard him snap at her, "it's Harper" she answered him, "give me the phone" he said, I hung up quickly before he had a chance to get a word in. I had no desire to listen to him. "Mama, are you talking to daddy?" said Bluebell appearing, looking at me curiously. I had almost forgotten she was waiting to speak to him. I was fighting back my tears. "He's busy he can't talk now, but he will call us later" I said reassuring her. "Harper what the fuck is the matter?" whispered Lucy. My phone rang, it was Jared, I hit decline and put it on silent. I sat down in shock, I didn't know what to do, I felt the baby kicking and hung my head in grief. "Kate, take Bluebell outside, please?" said Lucy quietly. She nodded, quickly realizing something was terribly wrong, "come on sweet pea lets go look at the pool, is it hot enough to swim?" she said cheerfully, Bluebell clapped and they walked out. I quickly explained what had happened to Lucy. "That asshole!!! What a fucking asshole!!" she said angrily. My phone rang again silently, we just watched it till it rang out. A new number was calling, it was his mom, I picked it up and answered, I wondered who's side she would take, "Yes?" I said my voice flat, "oh honey Jared just called me, it's all a mistake you have to listen, let him explain, please" she said quickly, "I don't want to hear it, he had girls in his room, he was walking around in a bathrobe, ask Emma she saw it" I said flatly, "Harper, there has to be a reasonable explanation, he'd never do this to you, I'm certain of it" she said, she wasn't sounding so sure of herself, but I could tell she didn't want to believe it was true. "There's no other explanation" I said sadly. "No matter what happens, I'm always going to support you, please remember that" she said resolutely. "I appreciate that, thank you" I said in a defeated voice and ended the call. "What are you going to do?" said Lucy. I shrugged, wiping my cheeks. My phone rang again, Lucy growled and picked it up. "What the fuck do you want?!!" she snarled, I couldn't make out what he was saying to her, she was pacing around the room listening to him. I wasn't paying any attention to her now, I was numb. I sat there trying to hold it together. Suddenly I heard her, "how could you do this to her you asshole? you've thrown it all away for some fucking bimbo, I hope you're happy" she spat, pressing end and putting down my phone. I didn't know what to do, my first thought was to go back to London. But that's the first place he'd go looking for me. I needed to leave, go somewhere he couldn't find me. I needed space to think. I got up and paced for a bit. Lucy just watched me not talking. Finally it came to me, I knew where I'd go. "I have to get out of here" I said finally, she nodded, "what can I do?" she said quickly. We wasted no time in putting my plans into motion.

"What is it? Cant you just leave me alone please?" I said, I'd finally relented and answered his call. "Harper, I need to explain" he said quietly, something in his tone made my stomach drop. Fear gripping my heart. "I'm listening" I said, barely a whisper. "Okay, so Jamie came in with a couple of girls, they wanted to meet me, usual shit, I said hi and then thinking they were going to go. I went into the bathroom to have a shower" he paused then, I heard him take a deep breath and continue. "I had undressed when the door opened, one of them walked in ..." he paused again, my heart had almost stopped. "Just fucking tell me" I breathed, barely able to get the words out. "I let her blow me, I had a hard on and she saw it, before I knew it she was on her knees, Harper I didn't want to hurt you, but I couldn't bear to lie to you" he pleaded. I let out a small moan, "no" I whispered, my whole body started trembling. I quickly sat down before I collapsed. "Talk to me please, I'm sorry, I'm an asshole, it was weak I know, I'm so sorry, please forgive me" he pleaded. I finally found my voice, "I never want to see you again, never ever, its over Jared" I hit end and lay down on the bed sobbing my heart out.