crush // c.d

back to school

its been five days, i finally go back to school. i know i dont like school, but i was getting a really bored. i got up took a quick shower and brushed my teeth. i blow dry my hair and curled it. once i finished i went to change into my clothes. i put my shoes on and walk down the stairs. im hungry, I decided on making a biscuit with sausage with cheese and eggs. well i didnt make it but that's what it comes with in the pack. I microwave it and once its down i sit down and eat. its 6:55, i finished and grabbed my keys and phone. i walk to my car and get in. jack left a while ago, he needed to go do something about football idk what. i drive to school, i walk in. good thing everyone forgot what happened. i walk to my friends, everyone is there but any, tammy, kattie. i know yall are saying. "wow everyone left them alone because of lilly." well no. they choice to.

"hey guys guess who's back!!" i said smiling. "AYEE SHES BACK!!" carter yelled. "carter hush!!" i laughed hugging him. "hey what about us?" they all said. i hugged everyon and mayrin. "you forgot me!" cam said. "hey babe" i hugged him and kissed his cheek. "hey babe" he smiled. "so what did mayrin and i miss?" i asked. they all started talking at the same time. "guys one at a time." i laughed. "everyone was saying how badass you and mayrin are." jack j said. "pssh i dont mean to brag. just kidding!" i laughed. "well im going to class" i said. "why?" cam said. "i need to do something." i said. I started walking away but someone grabbed my arm. i turn around and its cameron "lilly are you okay?" he asked. "yeah why?" i asked. "you seem a little down." he said. "im okay! go back, i love you." i kissed him. he kisses back but i pull away, i smile then walk away.

i needed to talk to my teacher. i walk into class. "hey Mrs. Kendall, i wanted to talk about my grades and credits." i said. "you came to the right person! well let me check your grades lilly." she smiled. i nodded. "well lilly your grades great! you have three A's and one B! just to let you know, Mr Clark didn't put your suspension in your record." she said. "great! and i know he told me." I smiled. "well you have almost all your credits, you just need to finish this year and of course graduate this year. any colleges your interested im?" she asked. "well i havent really checked. i think im going to wait a year before college." i said. "oh well thats good, i know starting college is scary, losing your friends, starting a life. when i started college i was so scared. but I conquered that fear. you'll be okay. you have my number, im here to help you lilly." she smiled. "thank you Mrs Kendall." i smiled and walked out.

during third block we have lunch. so i walk to lunch with mayrin. "where did you go in the morning?" she asked. "i had to talk to my teacher. mayrin were going to graduate this year. what if after we graduate we lose communication. i know your gonna say, we wont but everyone says that to there bestfriends but we end up not speaking anymore. im scared ill lose you, cameron and the boys. my brother and Johnson are gonna started  tours singing worldwide. hayes and nash are going to be together. taylor and carter want to join magcon again, so does aaron and cam. shawn is going to have concerts worldwide. matt is going on his own tour. your gonna do what you always wanted to do. become successful and im here not knowing what im going to do." i said tearing up. "lilly, im not going to college. i want to start posting more YouTube videos, you know meet my fans. but i will never leave you. lilly you have an amazing voice! you can start singing, record it and post it and you'll get noticed! me and matt talked about this. he said he isnt doing his tour after we graduate hes gonna wait. cameron loves you do much that he might change his mind." she hugged me. "i dont want cameron to change his mine for me. i want him to he happy. "i sighed. "he is happy, with you. lilly have you not noticed that he's always smiling when hes with you. you make him happy. he truly loves you." she said. "i have to talk to him about this. there probably looking for us." I chuckled. we started walking to there table since we sat in the chairs outside. "where were you guys, we went to go look for yall." Jack said. "dont worry we were sitting outside talking." I laughed. "i told you guys they would be outside but no one listens to me" aarom said. "its okay aaron" i hugged him. we down at out table and talked for a while then the bell rang. we all said by and walked to class. i need to start thinking about my future, i mean im 18, about to graduate.

i went to class, took notes and did my work. then the bell rang. which meant we can leave. i walk out and start walking to my car. someone stops me. I turn around to see jack: "yes jack?" I asked. "im riding with you since cam took me, he has something to do." Jack said. "okay. im going to text him and ask what hes doing." i said about to grab my phone but jack takes it. "no dont do that! hes fine." jack said. "jack whats going on?" I asked. "no-nothing" he stuttered, I decided not to keep asking because he wont tell me.

i drive home and took my phone from jack. i walk in my house and sat in the coach. i turn on my phone, i havent been on snapchat in a long time. i started to record myself. "hey guys its lilly!! its been a while! but snap me questions and I'll answer them!!" then it stopped. i went upstairs to my room. i went through my drawer looking for my old iphone 6. i found it, i turn it on and take pictures off all the questions so i can answer them.

"first question: how long have you and cam been dating? almost 6 months" i smiled.

after answering all the questions i look through my friends snaps. i look at camerons, he took a picture of me today in lunch I didn't even notice. then pictures of him and roses. hmm who are they for?