crush // c.d

staying home

ever since what happened last night, i havent left my room. ive been watching netflix all day. I decided to make a YouTube video.

I grab my cameron and tripod, and the lights. i start the camera. "hey guys! its lilly! okay so this video is just a update on whats going on." i said. "okay so first i wanted to say thank you for 5.4 million followers !!! second i made the soccer team again lol. okay heres were i might end up crying.." I said. "so i know you guys are probably like 'why has cameron tweeting about our relationship. well, we are no longer dating anymore. i don't want to say what happened, but if cameron wants to then alright. it happened last night. i know you guys are also thinking why did the boys tweet saying you were missing? well i ran away, I couldn't handle how hurt i was. if i stayed it would have hurt me more. i came back today at 12:30, i just couldnt look at cameron anymore. i know what i said to him was harsh, i was hurting. i know this video is a little boring but i need to take it out. but thank you for watching don't forget to leave a like or comment!" I chuckled. i stop my camera. i put everything away, I upload the video to my computer, I edited it a little. I uploaded it, and within seconds i get 10,000 views. i love my fans. im not gonna stay here in my room forever, i cant be sad forever.

i get up i put my shoes on, grabbed my phone and purse. i walk down the stairs. i go to the kitchen, everyone is here but cameron. "uh hi" i said. "lilly!!" mayrin yelled. "yes?" i asked. "are you okay?" she asked. "yeah im totally fine. well im going out." i said walking towards the garage door. "lilly whats going on?" jack asked. "nothing jack" i said. "no i mean with cameron?" he asked. "he cheated on me, i went to go look for him, once i open that bathroom door I see him making out with a girl." i said tearing up. "lilly its okay, im always going to be here for you!" he hugged me. "i have go jack" i said. "okay, but please buy something to eat, you haven't ate." he said. "fine bye"

i get in my car, i drive to Starbucks. i walk in, i see everyone smiling, smiling with there family, smiling with there love ones, smiling at the girlfriend or boyfriend. i need to be happy. i walk in line, i wait for a few. "hi welcome to Starbucks! what can i get you?" the girl said. "hi! can i get a venti vanilla frappuccino, with an oatmeal cookie" i said. "sure, do you want your cookie warmed up?" she asked. "yes please!" i smiled. "okay your total ia $7.45" she said. i give her a ten dollar bill. "heres your change" she smiled. "you can keep it" i smiled. i find somewhere to sit, i unlock my phone. all the pictures we took are on here, i can't delete. i love cameron, but i can't forgive him so fast. they call my order, i get it and walked out. i eat my oatmeal while drinking my vanilla frappuccino. once i finish my cookie i throw the bag away. i walk to my car, i drink some of my coffee. where should i go? i dont feel like going to the mall, I should call my dad.

*phone call with dad*

lilly: hello? dad?
dad: lilly? is it you?
lilly: yes
dad: hi honey, what's going on?
lilly: dad why did you leave, i didnt mean for you to actually leave! he left us, why?
dad: i know you didn't mean it like that sweetie, but i just couldnt let you get hurt anymore.
Lilly: your hurting me by leaving us. you left jack, and you haven't fully got to know him! hes your son! how could you not call us?
dad: sweetie im sorry, your mother already sent divorce papers. i will always love you guys, i just wont be there all the time. when ever you need to hang out or anything ill be here
lilly: dad you cant just leave us
dad: its not like im leaving you guys homeless, ill always add money to your bank account, Jacks bank account, and your mothers. ill always be here to help you guys.
lilly: dad please come back!
dad: sweetie i cant, i have to go

the line went dead. i drive back home, and everyone is still here. i walk in, "your home!" everyone said. "its like im going to run away again." i said. "we know, we just need to maek sure." matt said. "so what are you guys doing?" i asked. "watching tv, your YouTube video, snapchat, Twitter comments." Jack said. "oh, well jack i talked to dad. hes not coming back. mom sent the divorce papers. he said he would be here for us when we need him." i said almost crying. "lilly dont cry, your not going to be alone, you have me and mom and mayrin and the boys, we are a family!" he said. i hugged him. "im going to sleep" i said.

i go upstairs, i take a shower, brushed my teeth. i change into pjs then fell asleep.

i wake up, its 3:47 in the moring. i cant sleep. i get up and walked to my moms bedroom. i open it, i tap her shoulder. "mom can i sleep here i cant sleep" I whispered. she moved over for me, i lay down and she covers us up. i fall back asleep.