Running Into Destiny (Niall Horan)

Chapter 32: Done

Natalie

Wow, just wow.

That’s all that will come to mind when I think of last night. If I were to try and form any other sentence I would fail quite miserably.

Last night had been so perfect and all for the simplest of reasons. I found talking with Niall to be easier than ever before and I felt like I could be more open with him. For the first time I found myself wanting to tell him everything that was on my mind, everything that I was hiding. I didn’t actually share anything simply because it didn’t feel like it was the right time, but things will eventually come to light in their own time, at the right moment. At least that’s what I’m hoping for anyways. 

And as hard as it is for me to perform in front of anyone nowadays, I found it strangely comfortable to sing to Niall. I hadn’t played for anyone in so long because I couldn’t help but think of Jake and be swallowed up by his memories, but with Niall it wasn’t like that. He somehow managed to make me feel at ease just by being there. This was a completely new experience for me; I hadn’t even felt this comfortable when singing for Jake.  Which I guess is what made me feel like last night was the perfect time to share our first time together.

Like the lyrics in ‘Arms’ states, I feel at home when Niall holds me close, like I belong at his side. There are few moments when I feel like I do and that’s one of them. But I also have this constant fear that I could make a mistake and lose the one thing I care about most; him. Or that maybe someone ten times more beautiful than me might just walk into his life and steal him away. After last night though, those beliefs have been hushed for the time being.

Another thing that song is right about is that I’ve never loved anyone the way I love Niall. I’m completely and utterly head over heels in love with that carefree Irishman. And the way he kissed me last night made me fall even deeper. Just the way he looked at me afterwards made me feel like I was melting. I felt so loved. Nothing else in the world mattered and for a moment in time I forgot about everything that troubled me.

Last night I finally let go of my inhibitions and just let myself feel what I wanted to feel, and do what I wanted to do. Which in this instance was to show Niall just how much I love and care for him. It took a little convincing but I finally got Niall to let go as well. I know he was worried that he was rushing me, but he wasn’t at all. I truly did feel ready, and I don’t regret a single minute of it.

But we probably should have taken Harry’s advice a little more seriously. We managed to have lost a few candles.

Our late night arrival did not go unnoticed or unmentioned. The next morning all the other boys wouldn’t stop teasing Niall until they stepped over the line by asking how I was in bed. That one ticked him off. I just rolled my eyes because I know as soon as they are alone with no females around to eavesdrop, that’s the first topic they’re going to talk about. It’s not a big shocker. I grew up with an older brother didn’t I? Although Jake never really talked about his hook ups, his buddies sure did. That’s when it really sucked that his room was right next to mine and the walls were a little too thin for my liking. 

I knew I was right when a chorus of “Atta boy Nialler!’s” could be heard from the swimming rock. The girl’s and I just laughed and continued making hamburgers for lunch. The boy’s reappeared minutes later, all with knowing smiles on their faces. I pretended to scowl at Niall and he gave me an apologetic look. I just laughed and rolled my eyes. Boy will be boys, won’t they?

As the afternoon panned out we decided we’d just stay at the island and go swimming and relax under the sun. Well, everyone else swam while I floated around on one of the inflatable beds.