I Told Myself I Wouldn't Fall For You; Sweeran

Chapter Three; Honey Dreams Don't Always End Happily.

He was standing there; close to me. He kept looking at me slightly, but not spot on. Finally, our eyes met, and he began to speak.

"Taylor, I've been in love with you for a while now, and, I was wondering if you would maybe want to be my girlfriend?" Ed asked.

I opened my mouth to answer, but no words came out.

"Taylor?" Ed asked confused. "Taylor..." I woke to the sound of Ed's voice.

"Taylor, you gotta get up we have to go back to the set." He smiled sleepily, and I could tell he had just woke up as well.

"Alright." I stretched and sat forward. "I'm gunna head back to my hotel room and get ready; Do you need a ride again?"

"Yeah that'd be nice." Ed Checked the time, "Meet you at your place in 40 minutes?"

"Sounds like a plan. I made my way for the door.

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"Shall we get coffees again today?" Ed asked politely.

"Sure, but I'm buying today." I answered.

"No you're not, you payed for dinner last night." Ed grinned.

"I'm paying for our coffees and that's it." I laughed as we made for the coffee shop we stopped at yesterday. When we got inside, I glanced up at the menu; and Ed ordered his coffee. When I placed my order, Ed began to walk away.

"Ed I have to pay for that!" I said.

"Already taken care of. Along with the tip." He laughed "I win."

"But, you- I, How did you pay without me noticing?" I was surprised.

"You get very distracted when you read menus, and I'm sneaky." Ed grinned.

I rolled my eyes and made my way out the door. When we got in the car, all comfortable and ready with our coffees, I decided to ask Ed something.

"Ed are you busy this weekend?" I asked, shooting him a hopeful glance.

"No I don't think so, why?" He tilted his head slightly.

"I was just wondering, do you want to spend the weekend in Rhode Island, We can stay at my place, and hang out at the beach; we've got no tour stops until next Wednesday." I threw the idea out.

"Sounds good, anything special I should bring?"

"Um, just a swimsuit, We'll probably end up in the water at some point. Other than that, just regular weekend-get-away things." I said pulling up to the familiar little school where we'd finish up the Everything Has Changed video.

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"No Abi, I don't know I think I've fallen in love with him. He's everything I've ever wanted in a guy. He's extremely sweet, he's funny, and he honestly understands me. He's never let me down either. He's my best male friend. Its different, i can tell." I tried to convince Abigail through the phone that Ed really was the one.

"Alright, I have to go Taylor. Don't rush into anything, I don't want to see you hurt again. And, you don't want to lose him as your friend do you? that's what you've said all along Taylor. Don't let a possible relationship break your friendship. I really want you to think about this one. I'll talk to you later T, just remember what I said." I heard a slight click and knew she hung up. I stood there just looking at my phone for moments. She was right, I couldn't afford to lose Ed. I couldn't let him slip from my life like that, I wouldn't be able to. I'm not even in love with him; its probably just a crush. I walked toward the kitchen of my Rhode Island home, and began to clean up a bit. Ed was coming in the morning and my kitchen could use a bit of cleaning.

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"Taylor, Stop, it just isnt going to work out. We're both trying too hard, just, I need a break. Some time alone. Someone else can take my place, you seem like you don't need me that much anyway." Ed, obviously frustrated started to walk away.

"Ed," I whimpered quietly, choked up, trying not to cry "I do need you. Please.."

Ed started to turn around. "Taylor; I don't want you in my life right now. Its done."

That's all it took. My eyes flooded with tears, as Ed faded away. I fell to the floor. I wasn't good enough for our relationship. Why did I even try?

I awoke with a start and tears were forming in my eyes. I sat up and looked around for moments before realizing it was all a dream. I fell back down on my bed with a sigh of relief. But Ed's words from my dream echoed over and over in my head, making sleep seem impossible.

"I don't want you in my life right now. Its done."