I Told Myself I Wouldn't Fall For You; Sweeran

Chapter Ten; I Do Care.

The constant beeping was driving me insane, but I couldn't open my eyes. As hard as I tried, I was captivated by the darkness. I was in pain, that was one thing I knew. I was so curious, I longed to open my eyes and talk to someone, to find out exactly what happened. I didn't remember much, all I remember was driving away from Ed after he came to my house. Remembering that much didn't help the pain because now there was more emotional heartache. My mind was running wild, and finally I heard my name multiple times.

"Taylor, Oh my God, Please wake up." Ed's voice echoed through the room. I wanted so badly to open my eyes. It killed me that I could hear him, and yet not reply or see him.

"I'm so sorry Taylor. if I wasnt so stupid none of this would've happened. We could've been home right now in eachothers arms. I just should've told you I loved you before you left." Ed said, I could tell he was in tears, and I'd never seen him this way before, and although I was extremely mad and hurt, I wanted nothing more than to look at him and hug him. But I couldn't.

"Taylor, please...wake up." Ed begged. I tried with all the strength I had left in me to open my eyes. Finally, the light hit my eyes, and I could just barely see Ed, as I had assumed, in tears. I could now feel his hand wrapped around mine.

"Taylor, Thank God you woke up." Ed sighed in relief.

"What happened?" I mumbled, realizing how weak I felt.

"We got into a fight, and you left. You were crying and an eighteen wheeler came at you, and you swerved to try to avoid it, and you ended up rolling your car. I don't think I've ever been so worried in my life Taylor. You've been out for three hours, and I had to call Grant to give me a ride and it seemed like forever until he got to your house. Once I got here and saw you were passed out, my stomach flipped. You had to get seven stitches in you're forehead, and the impact of the crash on your skull caused you to pass out. They said it could lead to memory loss. Do you remember anything?" Ed explained, calming down a bit now that I was awake.

"Yes I remember almost everything other than the actual crash." I said quietly.

"You bruised your ribs as well, and you got four stitches in your leg. They want to keep you overnight to make sure nothings internally wrong." He held my hand tight. "And I'm staying right here by your side all night long. In case something goes wrong or some things worse than we thought. I don't care if you hate me, I'm staying here all night because I care about you and I really do love you Taylor. I was so mad at myself for not telling you that before you left, especially when I was told you got in the crash." Ed

"I love you too Ed. You just hurt me a lot more than I think you know." I replied.

"You still love me?" Ed sounded surprised.

"I never stopped loving you. That's why I was so upset. I thought you stopped loving me." I stated, almost in tears through my tired eyes.

"Taylor, I could never stop loving you and I could never imagine losing you. I told you in the beginning that I'd never let you go, and just because you were so mad at my I wasn't gonna give up on you." Ed said.

"I really just want to be yours again." was all I could say.

"I don't deserve your love but it's all that I need." Ed said.

"You do deserve it. Please, I just love you so much and I miss you so much." I said.

Ed stood up ad leaned over the bed to kiss me. I missed his meaningful kiss so much, I never wanted to break this one. When we finally did break apart, He stayed just inches from my eyes, now widened. "I love you so much, and I promise not to do anything to ever break us apart like that again. You're the only one who causes my happiness." Ed kissed me once more.

"I love you too, and I trust you. I can't live without you, and I'm serious. I replied.

Ed soon sat down, and locked his hand with mine. I drifted into sleep, as I was exhausted. I woke up numerous times in the night to find Ed asleep in the uncomfortable chair, but his hand never left mine, and he never left my side.

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After a little check up in the morning, They sent me home with some pain meds and advice on what I could and couldn't do to allow the stitches to heal. We called up my parents, who were in town for a few weeks, and they gave us a ride home. When we got home, all I wanted to do was relax, and Ed allowed that. He made me tea, and we watched television together. It felt so good to have things back on track. I had dreaded so much, and thankfully all that was behind us now. All I could think about was how happy I was to be back hone with Ed. I really trusted him, and I hoped he wouldn't dissapoint me, but I doubted he would. He leaned in and kissed me, making me feel that first time falling in love feeling. This, was how I wanted to spend forever.