I Told Myself I Wouldn't Fall For You; Sweeran

Chapter Five; This Is The Start.

Morning came far too fast and I sleepily opened my eyes to find Ed fast asleep, with his arm wrapped around my waist. I rolled over, making him move a bit, but not enough to wake him up. I just laid there for moments, looking at him. He was so cute when he was asleep, and I could see his chest move up and down. He was so calm. I almost didn't want to ruin it.

"Ed, wakey wakey." I smiled touching his nose.

"Well good morning beautiful." He said in a raspy tone. Hearing him call me beautiful gave me that feeling.

You know, the feeling where you get so happy its impossible not to smile, when you feel butterflies in your stomach, and you want nothing more than to have that feeling for the rest of your life?

Yeah, that feeling.

"Good morning," I said, I could tell I was blushing. "Would you like me to make breakfast?" I asked.

"Sure, I'll come help." He said, no sitting up. "What sounds good?"

"Well I was thinking pancakes," I replied. "But what do you want?"

"Pancakes sounds great." Ed replied, as we left my room.

I got out all the ingredients, which wasn't much because we were making boxed pancakes. I mixed the batter and Ed greased the pan.

"I call making them." Ed laughed, as he searched for a spatuala. I handed him the bowl of batter and he poured some in the pan. it sizzled and began to cook fastly. I went to the fridge and looked for orange juice and then got cups.

"Oh..." Ed said dissapointedly. I looked over at where Ed stood.

Next to him, was one burnt pancake on a plate, and one pancake, half batter, splattered all over the stovetop. Ed stood there with a frown on his face and the pan in his hand. I just shook my head and began to laugh.

"How did you even manage? Only you." I began laughing harder, and Ed was trying his best to not laugh through his frown.

"Come here." I said, asking him for a hug, even though his shirt had pancake batter on it.

His frown turned into a smile and he came over and embraced me.

"You know, you make me really happy." I smiled, resting my head on his shoulder. I was soon pulled away, and I then was staring right into Ed's eyes.

"You make me really happy too." Ed smiled. "You're one of the closest friends I have."

A bit of disappointment struck me at the use of the word 'friend' I longed to be so much more.

"Taylor?"

"Yeah?" I asked.

"I don't know you seemed so dissapointed." Ed seemed confused.

"No, I just blanked out for a minute." I laughed.

"Okay," Ed smiled, "Taylor, can I tell you something?" Ed asked, almost shyly.

"Yes, tell me anything." I said almost anxiously.

"Well. I've been having all these mixed feelings about you and-" Ed began to say but I cut him off.

Alright, maybe I was wrong. Maybe my timing was off. But, I couldn't handle the burning urge anymore.

I pushed my lips up against his, and he kissed me back. I wrapped my arms around his neck, and deepened the kiss. I began to smile into the kiss. When we finally broke apart, Both of us smiled, but said nothing. Then, the silence was broken. I dropped my arms from around Ed's neck.

"I'm so sorry. I know we're just friends, and I don't want to lose you. I really hope this doesn't effect us in any way and I just-"

This time, he stopped me. He kissed me once more. It was short, but sweet.

"I feel the same way." He smiled. He wrapped me up in a hug. "I'll never lose you Taylor, I won't let it happen. Ever. I promise. This won't effect anything." He held me close.

"Thank you so much." We stood there for moments before I spoke. "Ed can I tell you one more thing?" I asked.

"Sure thing, tell away." He replied.

"I'm starving, let's go out to breakfast." I laughed.

"Sorry I can't bake pancakes. Let's go."

I grabbed my keys and followed Ed out to my car. Some part of me felt complete. But there was still something missing, and I couldn't figure it out.