The Secrets We Keep To Stay Alive (JohnDave)

Chapter 9- Help Our Souls

"There's no one here to help our souls to tonight, it's on me, it's on you, to survive"
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John's PoV
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Well that certainly could have gone better. Now Dave knows of the existence of my big secret, just great. I'd like to believe what he said happened at lunch was true, maybe I just wanted something to keep me happy for the last hour or so I'm stuck here.

I'm mostly surprised at the fact that the teacher, nor anyone else heard our conversation. Not saying that I wanted the whole class to be in my ass about my secret, but you would think someone in the room of 28 would hear.

At this point however, I just really hope that Dave doesn't keep an eye out for a slip-up that could potentially fuck my life over. Then again my life is plenty messed up as is, so I don't think anything will be too much of an impact.

   Hell, Dave's only been here for like three days, and he might already leave.  It's like a new record.  But now I really can't mess this up, otherwise I might lose the only person I cared about, trusted, and may or may not have loved.  I feel like my whole life is on the line right now, that one wrong move could end everything.

What if I just super-glued my beanie to my head, maybe that would help make my life a little easier. Who am I kidding, that's a horrible idea. All I have to do is keep it off my head and just avoid it in conversation with Dave and eventually he'll probably forget that this ever happened. That and I better pray that Vriska doesn't end up telling him or giving him any clues. That would most definitely fuck everything up.

But at this point there isn't much I can do. I want to just trust him and tell him, but I know how that played out with Vriska. God damnit, why can't I just have a normal life. Then I'd never have to deal with any of this. All I can really do at this point is see how everything plays out and try to prevent the inevitable.

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Dave's PoV
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   Well that certainly could have gone better.  I wish class was over so I could just make out with this nerd and tell him that he has nothing to worry about.  That I won't judge him for anything he has gone through, past, present, or future.  But alas, I am still stuck here for another hour. 

   I guess in a reality I can't blame him for not telling me, I do have very iconic red eyes.  Gog knows I don't want anyone finding out about that, I'd be fucked to this highest level.  Not just slightly fucked, but full force.  Like the amount of fucked that you wouldn't just feel it the next morning, but for the rest of your existence.

But all the aside, I wish John would at least give me a hint. I seriously doubt it's that bad. Maybe Vriska would know? Who am I kidding, I'm not talking to her unless I absolutely have to. Hopefully John is able to tell me soon, I don't know if I can handle the mystery or if John can handle holding it in for too much longer.

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•Time Skip•
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John's PoV
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Finally the bell rang, freeing me and everyone else form this hell. I start walking to my locker, and I imagine Dave is already there by now. After a minute or so of walking I make it to where my locker is, with no sign of Dave. He probably already left knowing him.

I dismiss the thought and open my locker, grabbing the few notebooks I need for homework. Once I had everything I closed my locker and made my way back home.

•Time Skip•

I sighed, putting my pen down after answering the last question for U.S. Economy. ((For any confusion, U.S. Economy is the Social Studies Class, I'm going more in depth with classes and will probably go back and edit them later)). I take a moment to stretch my back and lay back against the headboard of my bed. Subconsciously I turn my head to my computer, just to check for notifications. Although there weren't any, I bet Dave is still working on Economy homework as well, Mr. Vantas did assign more than usual tonight.

I sighed once again and laid down on my bed, staring at the ceiling. I thought about what had happened in these three short days. It's weird to think that just these 72 hours had changed my life so much. I found out that my best internet friend was moving to where I lived, I had met Dave, basically lost my shit at lunch, thought Dave left me for Vriska, I found an old note, Dave then found that note, Dave began to get curious about my secret, I met Rose and Jade, Dave confronted me about the note, I told him maybe sometime soon, and Gog knows what will happen now.

Maybe I'll tell him soon. About loving him that is. Maybe my secret after that, but hopefully he doesn't find out sooner than planned. I shake off the thought and continue to stare at the ceiling. I can't help but wonder, what else does the universe have in store for my damaged soul?

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I updated within a week, yay
Sorry there is little to no plot content in this chapter, I just felt I rushed the ending of the last chapter, so I decided to elaborate a little. I promise next chapter or so more of the plot will unfold. Also, sorry for so many time skips and PoV changes this chapter •-• Don't forget to favorite this chapter, as well as comment, I love reading all of the comments I get <3
Until next chapter
•~>Keelan