The Secrets We Keep To Stay Alive (JohnDave)

Chapter 13- The Cost Of Trusting You

"And now they know the cost of trusting you is obliteration."
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John's PoV
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   I sat on my bed staring at the ceiling with tears that would not stop flowing.  Everything was quite except for the occasional sniffle and pained cry that came from me.  Part of me was saying that this would inevitably happen, but the majority of me felt hurt and betrayed and just wanted to cry and forget the world.  If I could just lay here and never move or have to do anything, that'd be great. 

   My phone and computer both buzzed and showed notifications from both pesterChum and from Dave frantically trying to text me and get me to respond.  I slowly looked over to my computer screen, one of the only sources of light in my room seeing as it was basically midnight.  However when I looked over, apparently not only Dave had been trying to message me but Rose and Jade had been as well.

   Begrudgingly, I walked over to the computer and sat in the small swivel chair.  Hesitantly, with the mouse hovering over Jade's username, I clicked on it and opened the message log.  I'd rather talk to Jade first than anyone, she might be able to make me smile, even if it's for a short time.

[gardenGnostic [GG] started
pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 11:53 p.m.]

[GG]: hey john, Dave said you weren't answering him and asked me to see if you were still alive
[GG]: and while i am sure you are, a response would be nice
[GG]: john?
[GG]: joooohhhhnnnn??
[GG]: alright, i guess ill check back later...

[gardenGnostic [GG] ceased pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 11:58 p.m.]

[ectoBiologist [EB] began pestering gardenGnostic [GG] at 12:02 a.m.]

[EB]: jade
[EB]: wait, i'm here
[GG]: good! i was starting to worry something happened to you
[EB]: nah, it's good
[EB]: just a little drama
[EB]: please don't say anything to dave, okay?
[GG]: okay
[GG]: i guess?
[GG]: i think youre lying, but ill leave rose to the questioning
[GG]: at least respond to her okay?
[EB]: fiiiiiiiine
[EB]: but you should head to sleep
[GG]: yeah, get as much sleep as you can on the weekends, right?
[EB]: haha, yeah
[GG]: well, talk to you later john!
[EB]: yeah, talk to you soon

[ectoBiologist [EB] ceased pestering gardenGnostic [GG] at 12:05 a.m.]

Well at least Jade did make me laugh a little bit. Even if it was only for a little bit. I glanced back at the list of names, Jade's handle flicked off, at least she is getting some sleep. Dragging the mouse over Rose's handle, I prepared to be bombarded with millions of questions. I would rather not play 20 questions, but it's probably for the better, and I also need to hold up my end of the deal Jade gave me.

[tentacleTherapist [TT] started pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 11:56 p.m.]

[TT]: John?
[TT]: Are you still awake?
[TT]: Dave is trying to message you, but you won't answer him
[TT]: Is it something you want to talk about?
[TT]: Well, I assume I'll just have to wait until you contact me when you're available.
[TT]: I hope you respond soon,
John.

[tentacleTherapist [TT] ceased pestering ectoBiologist [EB] at 12:01 a.m.]

   I took a deep breath, my pinkie hovered over the 'enter' key.  Well, I guess it's now or never, right?

[ectoBiologist [EB] started pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 12:07 a.m.]

[EB]: hey rose
[EB]: i'm still alive
[EB]: incase you were wondering
[TT]: Well yes, that is good news that you are still alive and breathing
[TT]: So what happened between you and Dave?
[TT]: Whatever it is it's obviously affecting both of you
[EB]: yeah, about that...
[EB]: i was trying to avoid telling him something, and he kinda found out himself
[TT]: And how bad is the secret you're keeping?
[TT]: Is it that bad that you can never face anyone?
[TT]: Or are you over exaggerating the effects of this secret being spread?
[EB]: no, i'm sure
[EB]: honestly, it would be better if i moved
[EB]: only two people know now
[EB]: one is dave, and i have no idea what he plans to do with this information
[EB]: and the other is basically using against me for blackmail
[TT]: Well, that does sound serious, but I don't think you need to necessarily move
[EB]: i wouldn't rule it out yet, but okay
[EB]: but i don't want to see dave right now, but i guess he wants to see me
[EB]: probably to mock me, but what else is new
[EB]: it happened last time someone found out, so
[TT]: I don't quite think Dave will hurt you
[TT]: I can show you his messages
[TT]: He really truly does care about you and wants to make sure you're okay
[EB]: well, i'm fine, but i seriously doubt he cares
[TT]: So I'm assuming you'd rather not go in to detail about what happened?
[EB]: no, i'd really rather not
[TT]: Alright, but I'm always here to talk if you need me
[TT]: For now you should probably go to sleep
[EB]: fine, but i don't know if i'll be at school on Monday
[TT]: I do hope you will be there
[TT]: Anyways, good night, John
[EB]: night rose

[ectoBiologist [EB] ceased pestering tentacleTherapist [TT] at 12:15 a.m.]

   Sighing, I logged of pesterChum, still receiving messages from Dave in hopes of me responding.  I thought about it for a second, deep down I knew that he does care about me and love me, but the rest of me still wanted to isolate myself from everyone and everything. But, I also knew that that wouldn't help anything, it only would for a little bit.

At least my conversation with Rose went well, though I'm surprised she didn't press on further, but I'm sure she'll ask about it later. I walked back over to my bed and flopped down onto it, closing my eyes and hoping sleep would come soon.

•Small Time Skip•

I sat on the bench in front of the piano. While I wanted to play something, I just lacked the motivation to do anything. So instead I sat there, staring at the white and black keys. I sat there reflection over what happened less than 24 hours ago. Part of me knew I would have to face Dave eventually, but I also didn't want to see anyone for the time being.

A distant knock snapped me out of my thoughts, and lured me to the front door. Opening the door I saw the one person I really didn't want to see, Dave.

As soon as my brain processed that he was there, I immediately went to shut the door and run back to my room. However, he managed to stick his foot right between the door and its frame. Of course he did.

Dave then proceeded to re-open the door, with his foot still in place in case I were to try and close the door on him again. I didn't say anything, and he didn't say anything back, we just stared at each other.

It was like that for a moment, and then Dave started to move. He lifted his hands up to his shades, and in one swift movement pulled them off, revealing the eyes I deep down longed to get a glance at.

They were a stunning crimson red color, unlike any I had ever seen before. Granted I'd never had really seen someone with red eyes before, but if I had, his would still be my favorite.

Forgetting my feelings of betrayal and being hurt, I wrapped my arms around him, my body feeling his warmth that I had subconsciously missed. I pulled away and looked at him smiling, tears of joy and happiness filling my eyes.

Everything was as it should be.

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