The Secrets We Keep To Stay Alive (JohnDave)

Chapter 7- Into The Dark

"I will follow you into the dark"
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John's PoV
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After staring at the last words written, I shoved the note into my pocket and let it return to its previously crumpled state. Sometimes I wish I could go back to those days, it was a lot easier to hide back then. But that was just a pleasant thought, a distant fantasy. Reality was that nice.

In all truth, reality is a bitch, maybe even more of one than Vriska if that's even possible.  But regardless, it's seems like the world has just hates me ever since I was born. Nothing has turned out right for me.

   People tell you that when you grow up things get better, but I honestly think that's bullshit. 

   I stared at the clock, it was almost the end of lunch.  Begrudgingly, I stood up and made my way to the entrance of the library.  Just as I pushed the door open the bell rang.

The only other class I had with Dave was Science, maybe I could worm my way out of it. I could always act like I was sick, that usually worked. I sighed and continued to walk to my next class, Art.

Dave's PoV
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   Well that lunch period lasted forever.  Vriska mainly talked to her "friends" and occasionally tried to list some reasons why I should "Ditch the loser and join the cool group".  With that choice of words, my answer will always be no to her.  She's so egocentric, it's toxic.  It's like she thinks the world revolves around her, like she can get anything she wants. 

   Meanwhile, I can't wait until Science so I can finally talk to John again.  Hopefully he'll understand, we've known each other since like 3rd grade.  I also may have developed a raging homosexual crush on that dork but shhhhhhhhhhh. 

   I plan to tell him sometime soon, so we can finally get Vriska to back the fuck off.  But, timing is everything.  Maybe this weekend would do, but then again it's only Tuesday and I've been here for not even two whole days. Oh well, fuck it.

I stride over to my locker, hoping maybe John would still be there. However, despite my dreams, it's looks like he's already long gone. Keeping my head up, I turn towards the metal door. But not before kicking a random piece of paper.

It's all crumpled up, obviously not cared for, but maybe that's besides the point. It doesn't appear to be a form of any kind, but more of a note you would pass in class between friends.  Part of me doesn't want to read it so I don't invade anyone's privacy, but the other part of my still has the "fuck it" mindset from my earlier thoughts.  That side is also the one that wins. 

   "Hi future me! How is life treating you? In case you don't remember writing this, I'm 8 right now, a proud 3rd grader! I don't blame you if you don't remember, we must be a pretty busy guy in the future. Today is 4/13, my, or our, birthday! I can't wait to get to high school and be done with school, I'm scared people are going to find out. That I'll accidentally let people get close to me, and they'll find out, and drift off. Far, far away... But hopefully that doesn't happen, you would know the answer to this, right? Or maybe something like this will never happen... Oh well, I quite enjoyed writing this, bye!
~Present (Past) You/Me"

   Well then...  That was not what I thought I would read, but okay.  Judging by the color of blue the paper is, the 4/13 birthday, and where I found it, I'm going to take a wild guess here and assume that past John wrote this.

   While a note to your future self is great and all, what happened in the middle there?  "I'm scared people are going to find out."  Find out what though? To be fair, I do have my own secret, but what would John have to be scared about.  The only odd about him, aside from a few of his interests, is that he is always wearing that beanie. 

   Wait, there's a little arrow in the corner, past John must have really liked to write a lot.

      "P.S.  I started to talk to this guy over this thing called pesterChum.  His name is turntechGodhead, and he is really nice.  He older than me by a couple months, but I really enjoy his company.  I'm sure if anything, he'll always be by my side."

I feel so honored, I guess he wrote this right around when we first started talking. While that's great and all, I can't help but keep thinking about that secret he's so worked up about.

Maybe it has to do with why Vriska is so against John and me hanging out with him? That would explain a lot, but could anything really be that bad?

As much as I'd love to keep theorizing about John *cough* my potential lover *cough*, I have to get to class real soon. I pocket the note so I can reference it if it ever comes up during a conversation. That sounded a lot better in my head. Oh well, I still love him no matter what, and hopefully I'll soon be able to tell him that.

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Hello there, it's been a while hasn't it? I've been a bit busy lately with class registration, my birthday last Saturday and those activities, a bunch of other school stuff, and music. But I think it's about time I update.
I still need to update the other one as well •-• Whoops
Hopefully sometime soon
Anyways, I hope you enjoyed this short little chapter •v•
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