Maybe...?

CHAPTER 44

Everything has changed.

Since I went to Italy with Lucas and since my grandma was incinerated.

I feel something so real when I'm with him... I smile like a dumb, but I act like I don't care... the truth is that I care too much.

We went to a park near our hotel. We were walking toward a bench and the sky joined us, bringing us a beautiful evening. We sit beside each other, non-stop talking. He was wearing a blue t-shirt and some black ripped jeans, his hair was messed as always.

But his eyes... his eyes were brighter.

"I'm serious, Adele is such a good singer, her new song is awesome." I was saying.

"Yeah, maybe, but her songs are too melancholic, you should try and listen to another type of music." I ignored his advice.

"Well, her songs remind me of someone." I told him.

"Your grandma right?" He guessed.

I shook my head.

"My parents."

"You know? Teenagers like you are only thinking of make-up, clothes and boys, you're different." He frowned.

"Oh, well, thank you." I replied ironically.

"Hey, It's not bad to be different. I like girls to be different."

I blushed.

"But sometimes is hard to be different. And even harder If the reason of your difference is because you're too broken." I said, aiming myself not to cry.

"Maybe there's someone outside there that is going to hold you very tight one day, and fix all your broken pieces."

I looked down and smiled.

And in that moment, I found out that he's my air when I can't breathe.

All my grandma's thing and my sadness has become a secondary fact just because of him. He makes me laugh even If I only want to lay in the bed and cry.

Yeah, he also makes me angry and I want to slap him sometimes, but that's kind of fun. I like the feeling of being in a rollercoaster when I'm with a person.

And today, surrounded by my classmates, I'm listening to Pharrel Williams, because it's how I'm feeling now.

I feel happy.

They're all talking about Bella and Aiden, about how cute they are together, and I just want to throw up my breakfast.

Suddenly, I see Julie coming quickly towards me.

I think she's going to hug me.

Yes, and she does it.

"I'm so sorry Lea..."

"Why?" I ask confused.

"Aiden and Bella..."

"Oh, that. Well, I think I'm getting over him, just like you told me." I smile, another fake smile.

"They're not even cute together, I don't ship them, totally not." She says it, probably to comfort me.

"They make a good couple, let's face it."

"Stop talking about them, how was Venecia?" she sounds excited. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"It was pretty great, it's a beautiful city."

"I'm not asking you about the city, I'm talking about how was to be two days in a completely romantic city with your crush." She rolls her eyes, whispering.

"Not a weird thing." I say.

But inside, I want to shout and tell her that I'm falling for him, I'm falling very harshly and that I'm afraid of have my heart broken over and over again.

But he was right beside us, so, I couldn't.

"He likes you dude." She tells me.

"You wish." I attack her.

"Oh c'mon, what not-in-love teenager boy would have gone with you to Venecia?"

"We're friends." I assure her.

"Pretty weird friends." She sits in her desk.

Before I try to reply her, I abruptly see Aiden and Bella walking inside the class. But they seem pretty distant.

I ignore that part and I focus on him.

He is gorgeous.

And sweet.

Really sweet.

And the thing is that I still get those stupid butterflies when I see him.