Wilson's POV
I was walking on my way home from my father's place. My mom and dad were separated a year ago. Sometimes, I'm at my dad's, sometimes at my mom's. I don't have sisters or even brothers. It's really hard to live like this, your family is broken. You don't even know where to run when you're having problems.
I went on my dad's house because I confessed something. I just found out recently that I'm gay. I have a crush on my bestfriend. His name is Josh. We've been bestfriends like since birth and I can't believe that I have a feelings for him. I know it's really hard to accept. We're like brothers. He really loves and treats me like a brother but I can't love him back like the way he does.
I think I have to clear my thoughts. Since my mom's house is near the park, and I' ll be staying at her place, I think a should stay there for awhile.
I sat on one of the swings. I can't really imagine him, being my boyfriend. Why I have to be like this or why him, there are a lot of people around me but why dies it have to be him.
I was staring on my feet when I heard a voice, "Uhmmm, hello?" he greeted. I look up to see the boy, he's really cute, no not cute, he's gorgeous... really gorgeous. I felt my heart beats faster than normal. I felt like I did 500 metres run.
"Hi." I greeted back.
"You look sad? Do you have problems?" he asked. Why does he want to know. I don't even know him. I should stop talking with strangers. But how can you ignore this beautiful, wonderful creature? What is this, love at first sight? Maybe not. It was just an amusment maybe.
"No. Nothing. You don't have to care." So stupid. You really like him but you're pushing him away. Uhh stupid thought. What's totally happening to my pea brain. It's not functioning properly. "You are new here, huh?" I changed the topic. I don't want to regret my words.
"Yes. We just moved in here yesterday." I knew it. This was the very first time I saw him here. I don't think he likes talking. Maybe he's just lost and he wants to ask for direction or whatever.
"That is why you don't look familiar to me. Where do you live?" Did I sound stupid? I saw he's making strange faces. Do I sound like a killer? Of course. I was too distracted. I can't look at him for a straight minute because I think, if staring can melt people he's done. "Don't worry, I'm not a thief or murderer. I just want to know. Maybe we can be friends. If you want." I am so desperate to get closer to this boy.
"Not far from here. Maybe three blocks or more?" he answered. Maybe a bit hesitated. You can't blame him. He's talking to a stranger like me and now I'm asking where's his place. If I'm in his shoes, I think I will do the same.
"I see. I live just across the street." I pointed at my house. So that he won't feel like I'm going to do some shit. And I don't want him to feel that way.
He sat on the other swing and we started chatting. Talking about some random things. We started laughing and also hitting each other. I really enjoyed talking with this person. I forgot about my problems and I didn't even notice the time. I think he also forgot the time. He was a little bit shocked when he notice that it was getting dark.
"It's getting dark. Maybe we should both head home." he said. I don't want him to go. If only I can stop the time, I will... I really really really will. I only smiled at him, he also smiled back.
"We've been talking for a time being but I have the slightest idea who I am talking to." I started. I don't want to miss this chance. I will try to get any information or all the info about him if it's possible.
"Ahh. Yes. We almost forgot. My name is Garett. Garett Matthews." Garett? Hmm, sounds great. One point for me. Got his name now I will try getting his number. But first I will also introduce myself. "I'm Wilson Greece."
"Can I call you Will? I don't feel like calling you Wilson. It reminded me of my friend." Anything you like sweetie. I should really stop these fucking thoughts. If he can only hear my thoughts, I'm dead now for sure. "Ahmm... Okay... It's up to you. I think you're the only one who will call me by that name." You know I like you, earlier. But now, I love you. Should I tell him I'm gay. What if he's homophobic?
"Thanks. Well, then... is it a goodbye for now? Maybe I see you next time?" Awww. I don't want you to go. I just want to lock my arms around him and never let him go. I think I can get his number... maybe. "Wait. Can I get your number? If you don't mind? It's okay if you mind." I wish he'll give it.
"No it's okay." he said. Yes! Im so lucky. I handed him my phone and he started typing his number. I should name it Garett :) "So just text me if you have problems. Bye?" he continue.
"Bye!" I said. I was very happy that he gave me his number. Now I have his contact, whenever I feel like calling him, I can call him.
He started walking on his way home. I watched him disappear. I also went home. My mom will not be home for dinner. She's on a business trip. I always wanted to be alone. My mood changed when I reached my room. I don't want to eat. I just want to lay in my bed. Stare at my ceiling and do nothing.
I'm thinking about telling Garett that I'm gay, but I'm scared that I would scare him away. But it's not bad if I'll try. I'm having second thoughts if I'm going to call him or not. I started searching his name and when I found it, I called him. When it started ringing, I felt so nervous. It's like I'm going to tell the whole world that I'm gay. Then, he picked up. "Hello? Who is this?" he asked.
"Oh. Ahmmm... Hi? Garett?" I'm so nervous. I don't know what to say. I think this is a bad idea.
"Yes? Who are you?" he asked again.
"Ahh it's me Will." I really don't know what to say. "Uhmm. Just checkin' up on you" now I sound so desperate. What was I thinking. I will not going to tell him that I'm gay. We need to be bestfriends first, so that he wouldn't freaked out when he knew.
"Well I'm fine. I'm going to sleep before you call. --" I cut him off. I should end this conversation or he will able to know everything about me. "Okay. Good night. Sweet dreams." then I hung up. I think the better idea is to know everything about him then tell him. Yeah that's a good idea. Then I remembered, my mom still doesn't know I'm gay. I can handle her. I know she loves me. And she will accept me for who I am. I should stop freaking out. I'm just so paranoid. I think I should sleep.
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Yes! Im done with chapter two. Sorry for a lot of "really" "should" and everything. Im just so stressed. Im reviewing for our exams. Yes. It's examS.
So I hope you appreciate it even if it sucks. >.<
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