Sammy Wilks Daughter

10

Okay. I have been keeping something a secret for a long time. 6 months actually. I have a boyfriend. I know its weird a 12 year old having a boyfriend but oh well deal. His name is Jake and i love him so much. Tomorrow is actually out 7 month anniversary. I am so excited.

I get up and look around the bus where we are. "Hi Jack" I smile. "So who is this boy named Jake? Hmmm?" Gilinsky says. I smile "My boyfriend" "OMGGG little Wilkinson has a boyfriend!!! Since when?" He squeals. "7 months tomorrow!" I beam. "Why didn't i know about this?" He says as he puts his hand over his heart pretending to be hurt. I shrug my shoulders.

"HI Madison and Johnson." I smile. "GUYS GUESS WHAT!" Gilinsky screams smirking at me. "What?" They both ask. "Little Emma here has a boyfriend. 7 months tomorrow." He beams. I get Awww's from both of them.

"Okay Get ready for the meet and great and show!!" Johnson says. I get ready in

"Emma looking cute babes!!" Madison says. "Thanks!!" I smile.

"Okay lets go!!" Johnson says. We walk out the door.

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After the show!!! 10 at night.

We get back to our hotel. Were all so tired!!!. I get dressed in my pjs.

I fall asleep next to Johnson since Gilinsky and Madison are dating. Johnson is my snuggle buddy...

The next morning my phone wakes me up. Its going crazy on the table. The vibrating is annoying so i pick it up. I get really happy because its our 7 month.

j-I am breaking up with you. I never really liked you. It was a dare. Someone dared me to date you for 7 months then break up with you on the 7 month day.

E-What the fuck!!!

J-Ya bye..

I get up and i go to the bathroom and lock the door. I slide down the wall crying my eyes out. After 10 minutes i get up and i grab a razor. I do 10 cuts in my arms. I let it bleed. Im crying so much that it wakes Gilinsky up.

"Emma? Are you okay?" He asks sweetly. I clean up my cuts and put a sweatshirt on that i left in the bathroom the night before. "No!!" I reply crying. "Open the door baby!" He says. "NO!!" I scream. I hide my razor so he wont know what i did. "OPEN THIS DOOR RIGHT NOW EMMA LYNNE WILKINSON!!!" He screams at me. That just makes me cry harder. Him screaming woke Madison and Johnson up.

"Whats going on?" Madison and Johnson asks. "Listen to her! She wont open the door" Gilinsky says. "Em, open this door now please!" Madison says. "Boys just go and get something to eat. Im going to talk to her." She says to them. They leave.

"Please come out honey" She says to me. Im still sobbing in the bathroom on the floor. Ignoring her. "Fine stay their" She says. I hear the door open then close. I scream at the top of my lungs. Im so upset about everything. I keep thinking and repeating to myself 'you push everyone away Emma. Madison left no one cares about you anymore'.

I hear someone come back into the room. The bathroom door unlocks and in comes Madison. She sees me and sits on the floor with me. She pulls me into her. "What happened?" She asks me, holding me in her arms. I hand her my phone and she reads the messages he sent me.

"Honey, hes not worth your time! If he didnt see how amazing you are and just went along with the dare he is a dick! Your only 12, you have time to get a good boyfriend and not a dick! Guys need to mature at the age of 12 they are not mature. Jack is 19 and is still not mature! It takes a while! Hes not worth your tears sweety!" She says to me. I hug her and cry.

10 minutes latter the boys come back and see me and madison still on the floor and me hiccuping from crying so much. My phone starts vibrating and its a facetime request from my dad. I ingore it but Johnson picks it up and answers it.

D-What! Dude! I expected to see my daughter not some ugly ass freak on my screen!!
He chuckles

J-Hurtful! Well shes on the floor with Madison right now so i answered because she was going to ignore you.

D-Why is she on the floor and why would she ignore me?

J-Shes crying right now..

D-What the fuck did you do to her Johnson!!

Jack chuckles.

J-Nothing man! Her boyfriend broke up with her and it was their 7 month today. Apparently it was a dare..

D-She had a boyfriend?!?

J-Duhh bitch duhh. Keep up.

D- Let me see my baby girl!

He hands me the phone.

E-H-hi D-daddy.

D- What happened baby girl?

E- Jake was dared to ask me out because they all knew i had a MAJOR crush on him. He was dared to break up on our 7 month which is today..

I start crying again.

D- Em, listen to me. No kid is worth your tears. Do not cry over him! He was a dick to do that to you! And dont do anything. Please!!!!

I just break down in more tears. I throw my phone and i get up and walk out of the room crying. I run to the elivator. I hit 'Roof'. It takes me up to the roof and i sit down on the ledge. I roll up my sleeve full of cuts old and new and trace them with my finger crying. No.. Im not going to jump. I dont want to die just yet. its to get away from everyone.

I feel so bad! I let my dad and everyone down. He fucking begged me not to do anything.. Im so sorry Daddy. Johnson comes up here gives me my phone and leaves. My dad is in another seprate location to. Its just us now.

D-Emma. What did you do?

E-I cut.

D- How bad Baby.

E- 10..

D- Show me honey.

I show him and roll down my sleeve.

D- Sweets whenever you feel like harming your self talk to Johnson, Gilinsky, or Madison. Or grab a paper towels and cut them. Not yourself. Please Emma!

He begs me. Tears are going down both of our faces right now. I just nod.

E-I love you Daddy!

D-I love you to munchkin!

E-You havent called me that in forever!!

D-I know munchkin!! Well i have to go but feel free to text me!! Ill always respond to my daughter! Just cant facetime!

E-Okay daddy. I love you so much!!

D-Love you too Emma! Bye!!

I Hold my phone close to my chest. I sigh letting the tears run down my face. I get up and i go back to the room.