I hope, I Think, I know (An Oasis bandfiction)

Chapter Sixteen

Days past and things remained the same. Noel did his best to avoid me and I did my best to avoid him. The band rehearsed daily. Noel was very intense with practice. He wasn't taking any crap. I went to a couple of their rehearsals. They sounded amazing. Noel's songs made the band better, also his guitar playing was better than Boneheads. Things were looking great for Oasis. 

It was late in the evening. Peggy was working, and the boys were sleeping. I couldn't sleep. I still thought about my confusion with Noel. Liam could tell something wasn't right with me. I just let him believe it was that time of the month. It was hard to get Noel out of my head when I saw him on a daily basis. I sat on the couch and closed my eyes. When I lived in the states I would sometimes sleep on the couch. It was comforting for me for some odd reason. It did the same for me here. Noels music notebook caught my eye. He didn't want anyone to look at it. I found it funny he left it in the wide open. He must have trusted everyone not to look into it. I was so curious. I wanted to know what went on in that twisted mind of his. I grabbed his notebook opened it. Pages where filled with song lyrics and little notes about his music. I didn't make sense why he wanted to keep this so private. A folded up piece of paper feel out of the notebook onto the floor. I picked it up and opened it. I gasped when my name was written on the top of the paper. 

my heart it skips a beat when i behold
the light that's shining through your eyes of gold
from heavenly blood you seem to spring
from heavenly waters you can drink
i'll meet you on a day that never ends
i'll greet you in a way that heaven meant
you lay me down gently on the leaves
you cover me over in my sleep

i never did say that i wish i could
i never could pray cos it's just no good
i hope you don't break my heart of stone
i don't wanna scream out loud
and wake up on my own

and as i close my eyes
and the sky turns red
i realise just what you are
you're an idlers dream
and you're singing shangri la
shangri la
shangri la
shangri la

I don't think I can ever tell you that I love you.....

But here it is my deepest love.

-Noel

My heart was pounding. Those words were beautiful. I can't believe he wrote my such a heartfelt and beautiful song. 

"I guess you know the truth now." Noel says from behind me. I jumped and dropped the piece of paper.

"Ummm. I'm sorry." I stutter as I begin to walk out of the room. Noel grabs my arm and pulls me towards him. 

"Don't be. I should be sorry." He apologized.

"You are making things so difficult." I whisper. 

"I am?" He says as he pulls me close to his body. I lean my head on his chest without thinking about it.

"Yes." I mutter.

"So are you saying you are crazy about me like I'm crazy about you?" Something about being close to Noel made me feel something I hadn't felt with Liam. 

I looked deep into those pretty blue eyes. Without thinking I kissed him. His lips were soft and perfect. Noel let out a small moan that made me crazy. I kissed him harder. His hands were tangled in my hair. My knees were weak. I started to fall, but Noel held me up. Noel pulled away slowly. He smiled at me. 

"I love you, Rhiannon." I couldn't say anything back. I knew there was a part of me that could love him. But, my Liam was sleeping soundly upstairs while I snogged his brother. What was I doing? I was falling  for Noel and I hated myself for what I was doing.

"I can't Noel." I exclaim. I pull away from his embrace. 

"I can't be in love with you when I am dating your brother. I am not this type of person." I was torn. My heart was breaking as I looked into those sad eyes of Noels. Tears filled my eyes. I couldn't do this anymore. I needed to end it with Liam and keep myself away from the Gallagher brothers all together. 

*** This chapter broke my heart as I wrote this. As I wrote this as I listened to The Noel Gallagher Show on Absolute Radio. I love that man. Did anyone else listen to it? I really hope he does more stuff like this.  Also I'm sorry the chapter is really short.