Just Friends / Namjin

5.

Jin's POV

I felt numb all over. I couldn't seem to think straight or even do a simple task without breaking down. I know it's stupid but I loved him. I still do even if he's the reason I have a scar on my heart.

He loves you too.

More like loved.

Why is it so easy to fall in love but so hard to fall out of it? Instead we just end up falling apart.

But what I don't get is why he can't just love me like he says he does. What's keeping him back? Is it judgement? No that can't be the reason. He's overconfident about himself and that's one of the reasons why I love him. Is it something to deal with me? How I'm too obesessed with Mario? How I like the color pink more than any other color? How I like to eat too much? How feminine I look? Maybe it's the way I talk or possibly walk? No now you're just making things up.

Maybe.

Maybe it's just everything about me in general.

If it was why would he still be hanging out with you? Why would he always leave you compliments whenever he could? Why would he look at you like you could hold the stars and the moon? Why did he kiss you like you were enough for this world? Why did he hold you in his protective arms and tell you everything will be okay? Why?

It feels like I'm going insane.

Namjoon is the only one that can make you sane.

Yet he's the reason why I'm like this. God sometimes I hate him for even existing in my life but I can't help but love him even more for that.

You're one strange human being Namjoon. That's what's exciting about you. You're mysterious and dark but also warm and kind. I will never understand how. I'm just so grateful I have you or at least had you in my life. Whether you're mine or not I'm thankful for you Joonie.

I love you always.

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"Namjoon still hasn't shown up? It's been three days" Tae said looking over at his empty chair.

"I'm worried about him hyung" Jungkook told me in a low tone. "Is everything okay between you two?"

"Not exactly. We haven't talked and I'm worried too but maybe he just needs time? I just really don't wanna talk about it" I replied trying to avoid the topic.

"Jin you have to tell us what's been going on. We're worried about you too" Tae said placing his hand over mind and rubbing it gently. I smiled at his friendly gesture but removed my hand from his since I saw Jungkook get a bit tense. I sent him a cheeky smile which he returned.

"Alright alright can we go somewhere else though? I can't think with a room full of people" I asked needing some fresh air.

"Yeah I'll tell the teacher we're gonna go to the library and we'll just exit from the back" Tae smiled getting up. I nodded gathering our things to leave.

Luckily we did all our work in class and we're good kids so she let us go. We all bowed at a 90° angle and left the classroom.

I sighed in relief once we got out of the buliding without anyone scolding us. We headed to the park and laid down on the grass enjoying the calmness for awhile till Tae got bored and started swinging on the swings. Kookie rushed over to him and started pushing him back and forth. I laughed as Jungkook pushed Tae with too much force which made him fall off the swing. Jungkook kept yelling apologies and tried to hug him but Taehyung pushed him away. I couldn't stop laughing until I felt two bodies pile on top of me sucking out all of the breath in me.

This is nice.

"Yah! Get of me!" I said in frustration at my lack of strength.

"My jinnie is in trouble! I'll save you!" I heard a familiar voice call. Jimin?

Next thing I knew Tae and Jungkook were off me and I was in a strong grip of arms. I was met with a smiling Jimin and I couldn't help but smile back at him. His smile was so bright and blinding, almost captivating. Namjoon's was warm and inviting, almost like home.

I miss him.

"Does this night in shining armor get a kiss?" he smirked leaning closer to me. I froze not knowing what to do.

"Ah Jimin! There you are!" Hoseok yelled with a cuddly Yoongi behind him. Jimin groaned as I sighed in relief.

"Hoseok? Yoongi? What are you all doing here?" I asked moving away from Jimin to join Kookie and Tae.

"Yoongi wanted to go somewhere quiet to sleep and well physics was boring so we decided to come here like we always do after school" Hoseok smiled. I nodded understanding the situation a little more better.

"Hey why don't we all hang out while we're here?! This can be like a daily rutine you know? Friends coming to hand out. Wait we're all friends now right?" Taehyung asked looking at all of us. We thought about it for a moment but decided we were since they did save me from Mark a few days ago.

It doesn't hurt having a few more friends right?

"What about Namjoon? Is he still friends with us?" I asked in a low tone.

Is he still friends with me?

"Hey don't pout. Namjoonie wouldn't like that" Jungkook heard me poking my cheek. I didn't even notice I was but it made me pout even more.

He doesn't seem to like me so what's the point.

"Hyung I'm A positive he does. He's just in denial. He'll come around soon " Kookie tried reassuring me with a smile. Did he hear my thoughts?!

"Nope you just like talking to yourself a lot. It's cute" he giggled.

"Yah what's cute? You better be talking about me" Tae said barging into our conversation. I noticed Tae holding tight onto Jungkook's waist and Jungkook rolled his eyes but smiled fondly at him.

"Yes hyung. We were totally talking about you."

"Good" Taehyung smiled cuddling into Kookie's shoulder.

Stupid boy.

I raised my eyebrows at the scene in front of me almost smirking. Those idiots are together aren't they? I shall ask about it later.

"I'm bored. Let's go to the arcade! I'll win you something Jinnie!" Jimin yelled intertwining our hands as he lead me to an unknown direction. I was shocked and a bit uncomfortable but remembered we were friends after all.

"Ya jerk face hold up!" Yoongi called placing his hand over Hoseok's shoulder. My stomach suddenly growled and an idea popped into my head.

"Last one there has to pay for food!" I shouted slipping out of Jimin's grip and sprinting off towards the acarde.

"Aish seriously?! I don't run for shit" Yoongi whinned. Hoseok whispered something in his ear which made him dash right past me like his life depended on it?

"What'd you tell him?" Jungkook asked surprised.

"Something your innocent little ears should not hear" he smirked.

I'm now friends with three horny idiots. This should be interesting.

Hi babes :)
Sorry I haven't updated in a long while. I was caught up with so many things but I finally had time to update :3

In the next chappie there will be much more drama and surprises so stay tooned! Love you all x