Poems

I have a Love/Hate Relationship With Myself and My Life

*a very personal poem that I wrote a while ago. I actually really like this one.*

Sometimes it feels like I'm all alone in this world

With nowhere to go

Sometimes it feels like I can never quite escape

From my endless mistakes

And sometimes those people I talk to

Don't act like my friends

The don't want to be around me

They keep on avoiding me

But somehow, I don't blame them at all.

But sometimes it hurts that they don't like me

After I've tried all my life just to be just like them

I've tried forever to behave like a "good girl"

But I don't think I'll ever

Fit in in this world

I just want my mother to see that I've tried

And my father to see that I'm sorry I've lied

And I hate myself and

All the beauty that I lack

I really am sorry, but I can't take it back

I wish I was normal, just for a day

Just to be like them so that I could say

My sister and I get along all the time

And my father is healthy, he's doing just fine

And my mother stopped yelling, and she's not so stressed

And I'm happy to tell you that I'm not so depressed

But I know if that happened, I'd take it all back

I love myself and all the beauty I lack

And here on my own, I'll watch the days fall away

And I'll keep writing poetry so that I can say

I love all my family and all my wonderful friends

I'll keep on dreaming until my days end

I'll try to be happy until my heart stops

And I won't pretend to be someone that I truly am not