My heart stopped and all I could see was the blury vision of the situation that was around me
I looked over at Liam who was screaming at the doctors to wake her up but by now there was nothing they could do
The room went silent and my Nanna, uncle and Jessica left and said they would stop by later "I want Harry" I whispered in Ella's ear
Liam was outside with Niall and Louis probably crying since he hates to do it in front of me
"Ally I'm so so so sorry" Harry said running up to me and pulling me close to his chest
"My mums dead" I stated the obvious but I couldn't think straight past my tears
He just looked at me with sympathetic eyes, we were the only ones in the room since we wernt Allowed in with my mother
His face came closer to mine any other time I would be crashing my lips into his but the thought of it right now dosnt make me feel the same as it did a few months ago
"I'm going to go check on Liam" I said getting up
He looked at me confused but I just ignored it and went to go find my brother
"Where's Liam" I whispered to the nurse
I walked into my mothers old room "I thought we weren't allowed in here" I asked him while I stood at the door
"We are her children we are allowed to say when we want the undertakers to come get her" he said whiping his eyes
"Liam that's crazy she should be gone" I shook me head as I realised my mothers dead body was still there under the white sheets
"Have your talk and then we will get rid of her" he blinked at me
"Get rid of her erm excuse me" I asked him as he walked out the room
I shook my head and went to sit by my mother "have a talk with you eh? You can't even hear me" I laughed before the tears came down
"What happened?" I sobbed into my knees "you can't leave me mum please,I don't even know what to say anymore you told me you would never leave me when I was younger and now 8 years later your gone. You and dad" I shouted
"And both of it's my fault, please wake up I need to talk to you one last time I just need to hear your voice" I sobbed harder "please mum just say something"
I sat in tears until the doctor came in "miss Payne are you ready for us to take the body"
I nodded and got up taking away the sheets from her face and placing a soft kiss on her head
I jumped back at the coldness she looked the same but she was so cold I looked at the doctor who was biting his lip
"Come on" he said to me guiding me out the room and into a smaller one
"I don't see what happened" I said to him
"We believe the pain killed your mother, I know it's hard to hear" he said holding my hand
"No" I choked and stood up "no no no"
I backed away from the chair and towards the door "miss Payne please just sit down" the doctor asked
"Not if your going to lie" I screamed before kicking the door
"Miss Payne I'm telling you the truth please sit down and listen"
"I don't want to, it's my fault she's dead it's my fault she died in pain everything's always my fault" I cried "I'm a mess"
"I will get a friend or family member in" he said as he went to the door
Ella came in moments later and didn't say anything just held me tight while I cried which is just what I wanted, for someone to hold me and not say don't worry or don't cry or everything will be fine because I do worry and I am going to cry and I know not everything is going to be fine
Ella understood that
I had trouble writing this because Ive never had anyone but my grandad die in my family and that was 3 years ago so I can't exactly remember what I felt other than I was really upset
Hope your liking it and also please leave book requests in the comments (could be yours or others) because I really have nothing to read atm as I've finished all the ones in my library
Kisses xxx
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Complicity
Fanfiction*Editing since I was like 13 when I wrote this and the grammar mistakes are just embarrassing* Since he started the band he's always kept him away from her, he knows what he's like and doesn't want to see her get hurt. Secrets, lies, age and betraya...
