Loving the Game

* Trouble *

           • Brianne's POV •

As I sat at my computer desk I thought about last night. Talking to Deshawn about some of the things he experienced growing up made me feel bad. Not that I caused any of that to happen but it was sad and nobody deserves to have a parent or loved one abandon them. I did get the gist of what he wanted me to know though, but one thing he says in particular stuck with me more than it should have:

I don't really fuck with monogamy. Don't nobody value that shit anymore. ~ Deshawn

I knew that what had happened with his parents made him feel some type of way and I can see how it changed his views on relationships but how could he not believe in the idea of marriage? Sure we're still young and that concept isn't something to be worried with just yet but did he honestly consider being a bachelor for the rest of his life? Surely he would need someone to have his best interest at heart when he was down. I know I would. I have a fear of being alone for forever so I couldn't possibly live like that. Maybe later on in life his opinion on that subject would change. Just maybe.
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When I got back to the dorm later yesterday evening, as usual, I was interrogated by Brooklyn. She wanted to know everything about our conversation. But I told her what I could manage to spare everything else I had promised him would be confidential.

"He wanted to tell me why he acted out. That's all," I told her.
"Why did he?" She asked.
I shrugged," he's just been having a rough time. He has a lot on his plate and he just needed to let of some steam."
"Doesn't make it right for him to pop off on you," she said crossing her arms.
"Yeah I know, but I understand how he feels. I would've too."
Brooklyn shook her head," No you would've waited until you were in private and went off on a wall or pillow. Trust me I know you."
I rolled my eyes," what happened on your date."
"Wasn't really a 'date' " Brooklyn smirked.
"Then what was it?" I asked sitting on the foot of her bed Indian style.
"It's...more like...testing the waters," she smiled.
"Elaborate."
"Well, she was cute and all but some of these girls nowadays only act bi to impress a guy, so I made sure she was really with it."
"How do you do that?" I asked contorting my face in a confused expression.
"Simple," she said covering her legs with the comforter," get her to show you what that mouth do." I laughed hysterically and so did she but the glint coming from her eyes clearly meant she was ever so serious.
"So you made her prove herself by...," I pointed down at the cover.
"Oh yes," she nodded," but it was really sloppy so I told her not to expect a call from me anytime soon." Brooklyn said frowning her face up.
"How.....rude," I shook my head at her.
"Well honesty is the best policy, right?"
I shrugged and nodded because technically that was true.
"The next time I pull someone and make them take me out it will be a boy." She yawned kicking me as a way to inform me to get off her bed.
I got up and jumped in my bed and turned the lamp on the bed stand off. I laid there on my back in the dark because u honestly wasn't tired yet. "Aye," Brooklyn whispered in the dark.
"Hmmm," I grunted.
"You remember that pact we made?"
"Which one?" I said rolling over on my side to face her but all I could see were her teeth as she moved her lips.
"The one where we said we both had to lose our virginity before we left college?"
"Yes..." I sighed.
"I kept my side of the deal. Remember? I lost mine to Chris Grant at the end of our sophomore year, but you...you still got yours."
"Goodnight Brook," I yawned faking my sleep.
"Wake up hoe! I know you hear me" Brooklyn hissed playfully.
"What's your purpose?" I asked annoyed.
"That you haven't kept your side of the deal and it would be quite legendary of you lost it to your little boo bae."
"For starters, he's not my boo, bae or anything else. Secondly, I don't feel like I'm quite ready yet. Thirdly, I'm not sure if I do want to lose it to him anyways."
"Oh give me a break Brianne King. He may not be yours yet but that's only because you won't let him because of the baby thing. And you only have a month and a half until school is out so...how much longer do you need? It's been almost 4 years ya know. And if not him who? Rakeem?" Brooklyn laughed light heatedly.
The last part I didn't find too funny considering the fact that that almost happened once. We were both a little drunk, which was rare for me, and horny. Didn't really realize what we were doing until we got interrupted. Thank goodness it stopped at the making out part. After that happened me and Keem went a week without talking because it was just...plain awkward. We vowed to never speak of it ever. Even Brooklyn doesn't know about it.
"Whenever I'm ready you will know. Now goodnight."