Blades of Silence (Jaspar fanfic)

Tears.

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Caspar's P.O.V

I wake up the next morning to the sound of Joe getting sick. I sit up rubbing my eyes and stretching my arms out. Knowing  that there is nothing I can do, I walk over to the door way leaning against it as he brushed his teeth. "You okay?" I ask him.

   He nods his head and spits out what was in his mouth, rinsing his mouth out with the tap water.  Once he is done he looks as his reflection in the mirror. "This sucks." he says angrily. He looks down to his stomach and rubs his hands across his shirt wiping the water off of his hands. He turns around facing me. "The little shit is going to hear about this it's whole life." He states with his eyebrows knitted together,  I laugh at him and kiss the top of his head pulling him closer to me. 

"I'm going to go to town today." I inform Joe, he looks up at me.  "Oh okay, what for?" he asks me pulling away and walking back into his bedroom. "Just stuff for my new video." I watch him sit on the bed grabbing his phone. "How long will you be gone?" he asks not looking up from his phone. I shrug my shoulders him now looking at me awaiting an answer, "No idea. I was planning on having lunch with a friend. so I might be gone a while." he nods.

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Joe's P.O.V

Caspar has been gone all day, it's currently 9:00 at night. "Fuck it, I'm going to sleep." I say to myself. I sat at home all day, waiting for him to come home I was expecting him to be gone for 3 or 4 hours, 5 tops, but no, it's been almost 9 hours.  This, is exactly why I don't get in relationships, I don't want to be up at 9:00 waiting for my baby daddy to come home. I don't want to be worried sick because Caspar isn't answering his god damn phone. I especially don't want to be crying right now.  

As soon as my nerves calm down and my tears have subsided I hear the front door slam open, and loud footsteps tumbling around upstairs. "JJJOOOOEEEE!!!" I hear Caspar shout. He's drunk.  I rush upstairs ready to unleash all of my anger on him, but the sight I see in front of me stops me completely.  

There he stands, his shirt missing, hickeys line his neck along with bright red lipstick. His hair a mess and his pants wrinkled.  

Please... Please tell me he didn't. "Caspar." I speak my voice cracking. "Joooee, Pleass-e dooon't gett mad." He slurs. "HOW COULD YOU!!!" I scream. "GET OUT!!!" I continue. "Waiiit. ddont do thhis." He starts to cry and so do I. "Get the fuck out Caspar. I smack his chest.  He flinches back, grabbing my hand, I try to pull away but he holds on to my wrist. "Joe, Stop." He yells sounding more sober by the second. I try to pull my hand away again. 

"I trusted you Caspar, You were the one person I let in and you ruined it, you and I created a life together." By now I was full on sobbing, He tried to pull me into him but I pushed against his chest. "NO! Stop. Get away from me and get out." I say pushing him towards the door but it's a lot harder seeing as though hes taller than me. "CAN I AT LEAST GET A FUCKING SHIRT FIRST." He screams. I step away from him.  He walks down stairs  coming back up a minute later with a shirt and a bag full of stuff. "Here's your bloody present." I say tears rushing down my face. I throw the bracelet Zoe gave me at him. He scoffs and walks out the door slamming it behind him.

I instantly run down stairs to my room and grab my phone dialing Zoe's number. 

The phone rings and rings. No answer. Typical.

I sit there on the edge of my bed letting the tears roll off my face, hitting the floor the silence envelopes me like I'm stuck under water. My hands fly to my stomach. Pain searing thru side, my breath is caught in my throat. 

Oh god, not right now. Please. I lay back on the bed pulling my shirt up and pressing on my side. 

More tears roll down my face as I try to ease my pain. Finally after 20 minutes my tears are gone the pain is gone. But worse of all Caspar is gone. 

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I wake up the next morning the worst headache. I haven't felt this way in so long, My heart felt like its gone thru a paper shredder, I look at my phone and see that I have a missed call from Zoe and 12 Missed calls from Caspar along with 5 texts. I call Zoe first. She picks up and I start crying. 

"JOE?! what's wrong?" Her voice is panicked. I take a deep breath. "C-caspar cheated-d on me." I stutter out. She gasp in surprise, she coughs and then I hear someone getting sick. "you're on speaker Joe." I hear Alfie's voice travel through the phone. "You okay Zo?" I ask. "Fine, just a little morning sickness." I hear her speak. "I'm sorry about Caspar." I hear her say quietly. "Yea, I am too." I say "I'm 5 weeks pregnant today Zo." I brag smiling down at the ground. "Beginning of your second month."  

"Can I stay around yours?" I blurt randomly, "Course, oh hold on I have another call coming thru."

I put her on speaker and walked into my bathroom. My face was broken out, my hair an absolute mess along with the clothes I wore from yesterday. "Joe..." I hear a voice call. CASPAR, OH HELL NO.  I hear him setting stuff down. "Joseph!" he calls out again. I quickly hang up on Zoe and run to the storage closet in my room hiding in it. 'this is how bad I don't want to talk to him.' I think to myself. 'so bad to where I'm hiding in a freaking closet.' I quite my breath hearing his footsteps coming down the stairs. 

"Joe, please I want to talk." A tear slips out of my eye. ' why do I hurt so bad?" I ask myself in my head. I hear foot steps walk into my room. "Joe I know you're here." He speaks "I'm not sure where but you're here." more tears are rolling down my cheek as he speaks. The door slides open slowly revealing a rather sad looking Caspar. 

"Hi." he says slowly. I don't speak. "Joe, I'm so sorry." He says grabbing at me, I let him help me out of the closet. "if you were sorry, you wouldn't have done it." I choke out wrapping my arms around my stomach. He pulls me into his chest. I pull away from him. "What do you want Caspar?" I look at him. he frowns crossing his arms looking at the ground rocking back to the heel of his feet. "I love you joe..." He says to me. " I roll my eyes. 

"please leave." I say quitely. "never mind I'll leave just let me pack my stuff."I inform him.  I push past Caspar. "W-where are you going?" he asks hot on my heels. "To town..." I say mocking his voice from yesterday. I grab my bag from the cupboard under the stairs. I turn around running into Caspar. "Get out of the FUCKING way." I shove him. "JOE. WHERE THE HELL ARE YOU GOING!" he yells at me as I start packing clothes. "Doesn't matter Caspar." I say turning around to him "It doesn't matter, because whatever we had, whatever we were. It's gone, you ruined it when you decide to go and sleep with someone else." I say calmly 

"what were we Joe?" he questions me. I turn back around continuing to pack my throat tightening with emotion. 

"A good fuck I guess. Someone who got me pregnant, or someone who I fell in love with way to fast and I have no idea how, because I've never fallen in love before. But when you came into my life, you completely turned it upside down. and you- you go and ruin it. tell me you love me. and come home with some bimbo's lipstick all over you." I finish packing my bag zipping it up and pulling it over my shoulder. "Bye Caspar," I speak grabbing my phone and pushing past him. I walk up the stairs, "Joe, please. Please, I can't be without you, what about the baby?" he asks me. I don't answer him, I put on my shoes. "JOE!" He yells grabbing my wrist as I'm about to exit the door.

"Joe. I was drunk,  my friend said I couldn't get anyone to sleep with me. And me being drunk I had to prove him wrong." He explains. "Caspar. You could have came home and slept with me, you know damn well-" I shake my head cutting myself not wanting that image in his or my head. "Instead, I have to stare at your neck that has hickeys all over that AREN'T from me." He start to cry at my words. "Bye, Casp." I say shutting the door. I stand there hearing things crashing and yells coming from inside. My hand lingers on the door handle. "I love you too. " I say walking away from the door, heading to the train station.

YEAAAAA! I hope you like this chapter, it was really herd for me to write. If you have any questions comment or concerns, please feel free to contact me. Thanks for reading. Can't wait for the next chapter. Buh-Bye.