Blades of Silence (Jaspar fanfic)

"I would be dead if it weren't for you."

It's been a long ass time!!! My bad y'all.

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Yes. This was an unusual environment form Caspar Lee, he was surrounded by people that looked like there was a vast ocean of shit that he didn't know shit about, and they had been every fine piece of said shit; and then some.

But, that was not going to stop him from accomplishing the goals he had set for himself. Make sure he is happy again.

That's what joe wants, That what Joe needs.

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He'll be okay. That's what Joe keeps repeating to himself as he sits in the parking lot for an hour waiting for Caspar's counseling to be done.

He had nothing else to do besides wait, there were no meetings today, he filmed his video for Sunday two days ago, He paid all the bills and the shopping had been done.

He had nothing.

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After the hour was up Caspar came out of the building. He spotted the car, walking to it rather mundanely Joe noted. He opened the car door with nothing to say. Joe looked at Caspar as he pulled on his seat belt.

"How did it go?" Joe asked softly pulling out of the parking spot

"Just drive." Joe doesn't know what happened in there. But Caspar's cold tone sent a shiver down his spine making the rest of the car ride incredibly uncomfortable.

Upon arriving home Caspar hopped out of the car and sped walked over to were Joe was standing.

"I'm sorry okay!" Caspar yelled at Joe making Joe flinch back.

                      "I'm confused. What are you sorry for?"  Joe said intimidated by Caspars rather strong approach on whatever he was trying to apologize for.

   "God!" Caspar yelled again turning around running a hand through his hair, he looked down to the ground.

             "I'm sorry for not coming after you, when we separated for those two months, I-It was like a dagger in my fucking heart Joe. I couldn't eat without think about how you would be telling me what I was doing wrong and helping me fix them." Caspar took in a deep breath." I couldn't shower without think about our first nights together.  I couldn't go anywhere without wanting you by my side. We fell in love so quickly and yet;  it's felt like I've loved you for years."

          Caspar turned around to face a crying Joe. "I know that's cheesy and sounds made up, but when we first met, when we were at dinner with Zoe and Alfie, you dragged me out of depression then too. A-And I don't know how, you Joseph Sugg are the light of my life. I've never showed you how much you mean to me, The thought of losing you and the baby, it tore me up, then you two came back, then I found out there were actually three of you, Then losing the boys, I felt like it was my fault." He cried

"Caspar! It wa-was n-not your fau-fault." Joe cried tripping over his words while walking closer to Caspar surprisingly steady.  Surely who ever was in this parking garage could here them. Caspar looked up to Joe and smiled. Joe smiled back.

"I would be dead if it weren't for you." Caspar said quietly.

Joes smile dropped.  He reached out for Caspar pulling him in for a tight hug.

"Please don't ever say that Caspar. I couldn't imagine you not in my life, You mean so much to me and we had bumps at the beginning but that's what makes us stronger as a couple. I didn't know any of these things. I love you." Joe spoke, after finishing his speech he kissed Caspar's collar bone.

"I love you too, Now lets go inside it fucking freezing."  Caspar mumbled interlacing his fingers with Joes. 

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Sorry about how long it's been, and how short this chapter is I plan on getting another one up soon.

 Do you think that is all Caspar ha been through? What happened in counseling that made Caspar act so weird? Do you think Joe has anything to do with Caspar being sad?

Thank you for reading If you did enjoy it please vote, or comment. If you have any questions, comments, or concerns, please feel free to contact me. Thank you for reading, and as always I'll see you in the next chapter! Buh-Bye!