Blades of Silence (Jaspar fanfic)

"I'm going to be a dad!"

Now I'm actually enjoying writing this story again, I feel like I need to update so here you go!!

Joe's P.O.V.

I lay on the doctors bed, my heart caught in my throat and my jaw hanging open.  Doctor Brent-haven turns to me and Caspar a huge smile on her face.

"Congrats boys!" I look at her confused as all hell. "What do you mean congrats! I can't be pregnant I'm a guy!" I practically scream at her her eyebrows shoot up and she looks over to Caspar Coughing a little she hands me a tissue. I clean my stomach of the gel, Glaring down at it. Caspar sit down in the chair his hands rubbing across his face the look of horror on his face, the poor kid.

I look over at the doctor again and one thing pops into my head.

I clear my throat. she looks at me expectantly, "Can I abort the pregnancy." I say cringing at the words coming out of my mouth and her jaw drops.

Caspar stands up quickly, grabbing my forearm his mouth coming closer to my ear.

"Don't." he whispers. I close my eyes feeling his heat and sweaty hands on my cold skin comforting me in a way that I can't explain. He moves away from my face and quietly asks Doctor Brent-haven to leave us for a second. She says she need to grab papers for us she'll be back soon.

Caspar pushes his cheek to mine. The silence comfortable, welcoming as I listen to his soft breathing sending chills down my spine.We just stay like that for a minute before a sob erupts from my mouth. His hands find there way around me pulling me into a tight hug as I whimper on his shoulder.

"It's okay." He says lovingly. He kisses my cheek. "We're fine." I finally open my eyes looking at him. My eyes blurry, he has small tears running down his cheek.

"This has to be some kind of prank. I can't be pregnant Caspar. I'm so sorry." I choke out.  He cups my face with his large hand and I slightly snuggle into his grip. He's calming me down so much. His Other hand still on my hip. We breath in silence. "We'll be fine." he assures. "I don't want it. What about my career, what about the veiwers?" I say quickly. Shakes his head "We'll be fine."

   A knock is heard Caspar pulls away from me. In walks Doctor Brent-haven, she shyly smiles seeing our tears. "I gathered all of the info on Male pregnancy I could find. Also I gathered all your past examinations of your male uterus." she says handing me papers. I look down at them pictures of babies developing are on the front of the pamphlet. I look back up when Caspar clears his throat, looking at her she speaks but I don't hear what she says.

Looking back down at the pregnancy papers in my hand. I tear falls landing on top of a word. Making the ink smear as it runs down the paper. Caspar sets his hand on my shoulder shaking me out of my trance. "Time to go." he smile softly at me. I nod my head hopping of the bed.

     Caspar grabs my hand as we walk out of the building the papers rolled up I clench tightly to them. Walking around the car park. I finally see the jet black car. Sighing in relief, I just want to sleep. I look out the windshield waiting for Caspar start the car. When he doesn't I turn my head looking over at him, furring my eyebrows. "What?" I ask.

He smiles at me softly. Pulling a paper out of his pocket.  He looks down at it. His eyes light up, I pick myself up in attempt to look at what he's looking at. He pulls it out of my view and I huff in annoyance. Jutting out my bottom lip. "I want to see." I tell him. still smiling gently he speaks. "Kiss me then." smiling he looks at me I lean in to him and he kisses me quickly. he pulls back his eyes still closed. He puts the paper in between us I look at him, he's acting so weird,  I look down at the paper and it's just like what was on the screen in the hospital room. but now there is arrows pointing to the little dot. He looks down chuckling. "It's just a dot." he says laughing. I nod my head. "Yet I feel like If I stubbed my toe I would hurt it." I say quietly.

"I feel more fragile than I ever have in my life." he starts the car backing out of the spot we were in. "I'm so tired Casp." I whisper already falling into unconsciousness. He grabs my hand holding it as he drives with one hand on the steering wheel and the other lulling me to sleep as he writes unknown letters to the back of my hand.

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I wake up to a bright light shining thru my window, voices laughing above me as I relies I'm laying in my bed. Caspar must have carried me in, I listen to the voices speaking for a while before a soft knock is heard at my door.

    "Come in." I croak out. The door opens slowly, as Zoë walks in the room. "Hi." She breaths. I smile up at her pulling the duvet closer to me. She sits on the end of my bed, staring at me. "What." I ask her confused.

"Caspar told me." She mumbles out. My eyes widen and tears start to gloss over my eyes. She looks at me frantically. " No Joe, don't cry it's okay." She says moving closer to me. Then Caspar walks into the room his eyes looking like a puppy who knows he's done something wrong.

      "Sorry." He quietly says. He sits on the opposite side of the bed looking at me, carefully. My eyes widen as I feel my throat tighten, flipping the covers off of me I rush to the en suite bathroom, preparing myself for the burning acid to erupt from my throat.
    I feel a hand rubbing my back, after a minute if puking I look up to see Caspar. Concern written all over his face. I try to push him away. "Caspar, go away. This is gross." I mumble out choking up some more food. "Well, I did this to you so I should get used to it." He states rather bluntly. " Zoë is making breakfast, well, brunch." He says getting off his knees and grabbing my toothbrush squeezing tooth paste on it.

    I stand up wiping my mouth with the back of my hand. Handing me the toothbrush Caspar kisses my forehead, he leaves the bathroom.

       I quickly brush my teeth walking out to Caspar sitting on my bed. He pats the spot next to him. I look at him noticing his tired features. Taking the seat he motioned for me to, he places his hand on my thigh staring a it. " erm- I don't know.. What to say." He speaks quietly. "Just spit it out." I gruff in frustration. He meets his eyes with mine tears forming in his.

" I'm really hurt about what you said yesterday." He mumbles " about wanting to abort." 

My eyes fall. "Caspar I'm scared I don't want a kid now and I know you don't want one either." I confront him. "That doesn't mean you can make that decision by yourself!" He shouts. Running a hand thru his hair.

"I'm terrified to joe! I'm only 21, and I, I'm going to be a dad." He screams.

That's the end of this chapter I hope you like it! I had fun writing it. Don't forget to vote and comment. See you soon Buh-Bye