Baby Blues (Zayn Malik Fanfiction-One Direction)

Chapter 58

Baby Blues_Chapter 58

“You want me to help you with your tie?” Harry asked as Zayn looked out at the beach.

“Nah, thanks man.” He said.  Even managing a small smile.  “She didn’t really like me in ties.”  

They both looked out at the sky.  Which was threatening to pour rain on the mourners that had gathered.

“Think it will clear up?”

“I don’t know.”

“Lots of people out there.” Harry said.

“Yeah, lots of people that loved her.”  

There were family members, band members, members of the music community.  All gathered for Emma’s memorial service.  

As Zayn looked, he could see tons of fresh flowers and two huge pictures of Emma.  

One of her with the twins right after they were born.  And one that he had taken of her sitting on a beach.

“The minister is ready to start Zayn.” Liam said.

“Okay, I’ll be right there.”  he walked over to where he had placed the urn with Emma’s ashes.  He hadn’t let it out of his site.

“You can do this Zayn.” Harry said.

“I know.  It is so final.  I don’t like it.”

“None of us like it.”  

They walked out of the house together.  

Zayn could hear people crying as he walked past them.  He walked up to the table that was set up and placed the urn on it.  

He had been a wreck the day before when he had said goodbye to Emma.  The funeral home had given him the time that he needed before they cremated her body.

He turned and walked up to the podium.  He looked out at the faces in the crowd and tried to smile.  As he was about to speak, the sun came poking through the clouds and he couldn’t help but laugh. Nice entrance love he thought to himself.

“First of all.  I want to thank you all for coming.  This hasn’t been a very easy couple of days for me.  Hell, the last year hasn’t been easy.”  He fought back the tears.  

“Emma loved all of you.  Very much.  I loved her very much.  And now that she is gone, I realize how much I will always love her.  She brought joy into my life.  Like I’ve never known.  And now, I have two beautiful children.” 

He looked over at the twins who were sitting on Beth’s and Niall’s laps.  “They will never replace her, but I will always have a part of her with me in them.”  

He looked over at the picture of her on the beach and could feel the tears begin.  He quickly brushed them away with his hand.

“Em asked me to sing at her memorial service.  And I told her I wouldn’t.  That it would be too hard.  But, being as stubborn and as persuasive as she was, I told her I would.  This song I first sang for her, right before I told her that I was in love with her.  I think it scared her.”  

The crowd snickered.  “Please forgive me if I stumble along here.”  

Niall handed baby Simon off to Eleanor and came up beside him with his guitar.  As he began to play, Zayn began to sing.

I used to think that love was just for dreamers

That fate and destiny played no part

But finding you has made me a believer

That we were meant to be right from the start

Before the sun and moon stars

We put there in the sky

Before the mountains stood tall

Above this world so high

I loved you then, I love you now

And I'll love you until

Always have, always will

Before the light broke through the dark

You were the candle in my heart

Before the dawn of time

I was yours and you were mine

Before the sun and moon stars

We put there in the sky

Before the mountains stood tall

Above this world so high

I loved you then, I love you now

And I'll love you until

Always have, always will

Always have, always will

How Zayn made it through the song, he’ll never know.  

When he looked up.  There was not a dry eye to be seen.  He hugged Niall and they both sat down as the minister began the service.

Zayn wasn’t really listening.  He was but at the same he couldn’t help looking out onto the ocean.  

His heart ached every time he looked at it now.  

He looked back and was surprised to see Liam, Niall and Louis standing up in front of everyone.

“Emma asked us a few months ago if we would sing ‘Amazing Grace’ and we said  we would.”  Liam said.

They began to sing.  And as they did, Harry stood up and joined them.

Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,    That saved a wretch like me....I once was lost but now am found,Was blind, but now, I see.T'was Grace that taught...my heart to fear.

And Grace, my fears relieved.How precious did that Grace appear...the hour I first believed.

Through many dangers, toils and snares...we have already come.T'was Grace that brought us safe thus far...and Grace will lead us home.

The Lord has promised good to me...His word my hope secures.He will my shield and portion be...as long as life endures.

When we've been here a thousand years...bright shining as the sun.We've no less days to sing God's praise...then when we've first begun.

"Amazing Grace, how sweet the sound,    That saved a wretch like me....I once was lost but now am found,Was blind, but now, I see.

"Always Have, Always Will" by Black Hawk  (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vyUGrQ7ZELQ)