Baby Blues (Zayn Malik Fanfiction-One Direction)

Chapter 34

Chapter 34

When Zayn awoke, he was alone in bed.  Emma’s side of the bed was cold and it appeared she hadn’t been there in quite a while.  

He rolled over to look at the clock.  It was 8:30 in the morning.  He rubbed the sleep out of his eyes and ran his hands through his hair.  He could hear the seagulls and the rush of the ocean outside of the window.  

He loved this house.  Loved the peace and tranquility it offered.  He was glad when Emma decided not to sell it when they moved into the house in London.  It was close to everyone, yet far enough away.  

Zayn sniffed the air and could smell coffee.  He crawled out of bed and pulled on a pair of sweats and went in search of his wife.

He walked into the kitchen and saw the coffee was hot.  He poured himself a cup and looked around.  

Emma didn’t appear to be in the house.  Where the hell did she go? He wondered.  He opened the doors that led out to the deck and let the ocean breezes into the house.  He looked out and watched the ocean pounding into the beach.  

The sun was shining.  Zayn glanced back at the kitchen table to see if she had left a note.  It didn’t appear she had, but there was a notepad with writing on the table.  He sat down and picked it up.

Things To Do

*Call attorney and redo will

*Start journals for the babies

*Start journal for Zayn

*Who gets what list

Zayn shoved the list away from him.  He didn’t want to look at it.  He didn’t want to think about his wife dying.  Think of their children not growing up with a mother.  

Didn’t want to think of his life without her.  He leaned back in the chair and took a deep breath.  He closed his eyes but opened them when he heard the patio door slide open.  He smiled at Emma as she came inside.

“Hey baby.” He said with a smile.  She returned his smile and saw the notepad on the table.  She knew he had looked at it.  She glanced back at him nervously.  

Waiting for him to say something about it.   Instead he reached out for her and pulled her into his lap.  He held her close to him.  “What do you want to do today?” he asked.

“Be with you.  Enjoy the day.”

“I agree.”  He kissed her neck.

“We should go to the store though.  There is nothing to eat in this house.” She said with a giggle.  “And the babies are hungry.”

Zayn raised an eyebrow at her.  “Mummy or the babies?”  

Emma playfully slapped him in the arm and kissed him on the lips.

“Let’s go Malik.  The day will be over before we know it!”  

Zayn watched as she walked into the bedroom.  Maybe today would be a good day to just play.

They drove to the store and loaded up on the groceries and headed back to the house.

“Let’s go for a walk.” Emma said as she was putting things away in a cupboard.  

Zayn looked at her and smiled.  “Okay.  Are you done?” he asked.  

She shook her head yes and they headed out to the beach.  Zayn held onto her hand.  Never wanting to let go.  

He watched as the ocean breezes made her hair fly in a million different directions.  

Laughed with her as their feet got wet from the surf.  His heart was already grieving.  Emma looked up at him to see him watching her.  She stopped and stood in front of him.

“What are you thinking about?”  

Zayn reached up and ran his fingers along her cheek and through her hair.

“You.”  She took his hand and they walked away from the water.  She made him sit down and she sat between his legs.  Her back against his chest.

“I took a long walk this morning and did a lot of thinking.”  

Zayn wrapped his arms around her and pulled her closer to him.  “What did you think about?”

“Everything.”

“And what do you think about everything?” he asked kissing her head.

“That I need to accept what is happening to me.  I don’t want to, but there isn’t much else I can do.”  She turned around to look at him.  She knew he was crying even before she turned around.  She felt her own tears forming in her eyes.  “I’m so scared.”

“So am I.”

“We need to start telling people.”

“I know.”

“Promise me something.”

“Anything.  You know that.”  

Emma’s gaze fell to her stomach.  She took his hands and placed them on her tummy along with her hands.  She looked back into his eyes.

“You’ll tell them all about me.  How much I love them and how much I love you.  And how happy…..” she tried to continue but she couldn’t contain her tears any longer.  Zayn pulled her into his embrace and held her as she cried.  They cried together.  

Zayn raised her head with his fingers and wiped away her tears.  “Promise me something?” he asked.

“What’s that?”

“Right now, it is just you and me.  No one else exists.  No talk of cancer or dying.  We do what we want for the next couple of days.  Whatever you want to do, we do.”

“Sounds good to me.  I love you Zayn.  More than you know.”

“And I love you.  More than you know.”  He leaned his face towards hers and kissed her gently on the lips before turning her around and they watched the surf once again.