university (justin bieber)

15

*WARNING*: there is sexual content in this chapter. read at your own discretion!

Biting my lip so hard that I began to taste metallic blood, I clamped my eyes shut and felt tears escape from the corners of my eyes.

The car was completely silent, making me all the more tempted to scream my lungs out. I knew that this was the greatest opportunity for him, but I had trouble letting go. I was tearing myself up over something that was bound to happen someday.

"I thought you would be happier about this," Justin sighed, leaning his head against the window. I exhaled sharply and wiped my eyes. I couldn't bare seeing his face, so I turned toward the window and fixed my attention upon the flickering street light.

"I am happy. It's just sudden, and I'm going to miss you. That's all," I said shakily, picking at my chipped nail polish.

"Your reaction is making me reconsider things," He said truthfully.

Sighing, I wiped my tear stained cheeks and rubbed my wet hands off onto my sweatpants.

"Don't," I urged him, even though my brain told me to say the opposite. "You have so much talent, Justin. Don't give this up."

He laughed suddenly, breaking the uncomfortable aura in the car. I furrowed my eyebrows, feeling my stomach twist with confusion.

"Don't give it up? You're over here crying about it, Jasmine. Obviously you want me to give it up," He groaned, his hands flying up.

Scoffing, I turned to face him with a shaky lip and sore throat.

"What do you want me to do? Sit here and act like I don't care? I care about you, Justin. More than I ever wanted to," I retaliated, narrowing my eyes at him.

"I don't want to leave you," He admitted, biting his lip. "I have to do something with my life. I need to make my family proud."

Digging my nails into the leather of the seat, I prepared myself to tell him once again what I felt. I took a deep breath and felt my palms beginning to sweat.

"I love you, okay? You don't have to say it back because I know you heard me last time and didn't know what to say. I'm not expecting anything back from you. Just let me show you how I feel for once without having you back away from me."

Justin's eyes widened, his eyebrows raising with them. I shut my eyes and tried to steady my respiration as I waited for him to respond.

"I feel something for you, Jasmine, and I'm not denying that. I don't know how love feels and what the hell it is, but I do feel something. It might be love, it might not be, but I'm sorry that I can't tell you the same thing," He sighed, his voice cracking.

I climbed over the center console of the car, taking Justin by surprise as I straddled him and held his face tightly with my shaky hands.

"Go. Be happy there," I breathed out painfully, never taking my eyes off his. He frowned and placed his hands on my hips, rubbing the skin slowly.

He leaned his forehead against mine and spoke out, his warm breath fanning out against my lips.

"Shut up and kiss me."