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8 • in which serena gets friendzoned

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Oh. My. God.

Oh. My. God.

I almost kissed Myles.

I almost kissed Myles.

But we didn't.

And I don't know what to think of that.

Sure, I like him. He's cute, he's funny, he's sweet, he's everything a girl could ask for. But he's also just getting over a girl he's had a thing for since he hit puberty, and that girl happens to be one of the closest friends I've made since I've gotten here. But I think he likes me too, I can see it in the way his eyes linger on me when he thinks I'm not looking, the way he pays extra attention to me when I speak, the way he is the perfect gentleman whenever I'm with him.

But then there's Keller.

The date with Keller was incredible. He picked me up right at 7 like he said he would, he opened all my doors for me, he took me to a nice restaurant and then we walked along the boardwalk afterwards and he won me a stuffed animal, and he walked me to my door and he kissed me goodnight. The kiss was sweet, soft, and gentle. Everything a first kiss should be. But when he asked me if he could see me again soon, I fumbled to find words to answer him. I told him that I had a great time, that he was super sweet, but I just wasn't really sure if I was ready to jump into a relationship so early in the year. He looked a little forlorn after that, but he told me that we could take things slow, and he would let me make the next move when I was ready. He told me that he would wait for me. Wait for me. I felt like I was being courted by a prince. My heart practically melted at that. He was absolutely perfect, and I just felt terrible that I couldn't put my whole effort into the date, because my mind was on other things.

Or rather, someone.

Myles.

Myles, Myles, Myles. I couldn't get him out of my head. Is it strange that I feel this insane pull towards him? I mean, I've only known him for a few days, but I feel like I've known him my whole life. Maybe I'm crazy, but there's something about him that I have to know more about. There's something about him that I can't seem to stay away from.

Is it terrible that I wished it was Myles kissing me goodnight instead of Keller?

I know he feels the same way. I know it. I can tell just by looking into his eyes. The way he looked at me, so tenderly, the way he touched my face ever so softly, it was almost, magical. I've never felt anything like that in my entire life.

But then again, there's also the small little road bump that he's sorta kinda maybe still in love with Riley.

Maybe I should just go for Keller. If me and Myles are meant to be, then it'll happen, right? I mean, shouldn't it be so easy to just choose the guy who's made it clear that he's into you? Why isn't it that easy?

I woke up this morning with my head spinning. After the almost-kiss, Myles drove me home in awkward silence. He didn't even open the door for me like he did that morning. He just sat there, looking straight forward with a blank look on his face. I just whispered, "Thanks for the ride," and left. By the time I turned around, he was already down the street.

I took a quick shower to clear my head, brushed some powder on my face and mascara on my eyelashes, blow dried my hair, and took my time eating breakfast. I had no desire to go to school and face Myles, nor did I have any to put effort into my appearance, so I went for a simple cropped white off the shoulder top, high waisted denim shorts with crochet hem, white converse, and some aviators to finish the look. One thing about me, I could not leave the house without sunglasses, especially on a day like this. Great job Serena, it's been less than a week since you met these guys and now you already made things awkward.