I wake up and go to Hensley's room. All of her toys are still in here because I can't have myself get rid of them. I don't see her everywhere anymore bit I sure think of her often.
I knew this day was coming but I was still not prepared to handle it. Hensley's first birthday would be today. I slide down the wall and scream.
"NO! NO, NO, NO! HENSLEY! WHY? WHY WOULD THIS HAPPEN TO ME? I SHOULD HAVE A DAUGHTER! HENSLEY! HENSLEY!" I scream and cry. I throw anything I can find near. I throw the night light that would've been hers. I throw some teady bears at the wall. I throw the baby book we where going to put together. I skipped school and so did Camden. I thought he didn't know Hensley's birthday but he was actually screaming and crying in his room and then came to join me. I love how he wouldn't leave me lonely.
I sit on the floor and he cradles me as I hold onto a teddy bear with a pink bow on its ear. I cry and he sniffles as he whispers in my ear. I know he wants to be strong for me which makes me cry even harder.
I start imagining the birthday party I would've thrown her. What would she even have liked? Would I have done some TV show she liked or a cute pattern or something? I imagine her first steps and words. But what would really be her first word? Mama like lots of kids? I don't know and I never will know.
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The Teenagers Baby(Finished)
RomanceAtalize gets pregnant in her softmore year and has no clue what to do. Her parents are very religious and against abortion but she feels she won't be able to take care of a baby and a child would ruin her life. This is the story of Atalize and her...
