Sweet Nothing (5SOS)

Chapter 19

And I stand

On shaken ground

The earth moves beneath my feet

And I shout "forgive me"

But there's no God listening

And these walls surround us

Always black and grays I see

And we found this time

On our weakness it will feed

Is this the end of the world?

I cannot bear to watch it burn

But we're crawling in the dirt

Is this the end of it all?

Well we used to stand so tall

I barely recognize us anymore -The Swarm. You Me At Six

Chapter 19

Juliet's POV

"I know." Luke says quietly after everybody has left, even the doctors.

"Know what?" I ask as I flip through the channels on the TV.

"The doctors told us." He shuts his eyes tightly. "My mom and I."

"What?" I begin to get worried.

"I knew I saw those bruises on your body when things got... heated err... or we got... intimate. But it was dark and I let it go because of the circumstances. I shouldn't of though." He looks like he's going to cry. My heart breaks for him. His eyes are full of love for me and I just hurt him over and over again. But then what he actually said breaks through. "Why didn't you tell me?"

"No. No," I begin crying. "I wanted to tell you when it was right."

"So you were just going to fuck me first? Then tell me?" I can tell he doesn't know what to feel. He's angry but just as concerned.

"Luke, I'm so sorry. I wanted to tell you it was just hard." Tears fall out of his eyes.

"I want to be here for you. I want you to tell me these things. I can protect you. From whoever did this to you. Even yourself." He looks me in the eyes. His face is red and swollen with tears and I imagine mine is as well. I reach out to him and he knows what I want. He gets up from the chair and lies down next to me on the bed. I move over but it's still a tight fit.

"I love you Luke." He looks down at me with wide eyes. "It might not be in the way you want me to love you but I do." As soon as I say it I know it's true. I love him.

"I love you too Juliet." He says. "In all the wrong ways." Tears won't stop falling from our eyes. I don't know what to do. 

"What do we do now?" He voices my thoughts.

"I want you to know." I decide.

"Know wh-what?" I can tell he somewhat knows and he's really just making sure that I'm sure.

"My brother hit me, abused me, and I guess he couldn't deal with my parents disappearance. Finally he killed two people and got put in jail. Nobody ever knew. But then today, Ashton's Mom's boyfriend touched me inappropriately. He said I couldn't tell Ashton, and he would be expecting a visit from me soon." By now I'm sobbing. Why is this happening? I want to run away. To die. 

Luke's eyes are wide and he shakes his head. "You don't deserve this baby." He wraps his arms around me and I feel somewhat guilty that he is always comforting me. But I can't deny that it works. The way he calls me 'Baby', and only says it when he's serious.

He begins singing softly in my ear to get me to calm down. It is beyond comforting and soon my breathing slows. I listen to his heartbeat and caress his cheek before pressing my lips to his.

"I love you." I whisper.

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Ashton's POV

I get to the hospital just as Michael's leaving. I don't see anybody else. They probably already left.

"What room is she in?" I ask him hurriedly.

"Floor 4, room 427. But please Ashton, she's been going through a lot more than you think. Don't be angry with her." He looks like he's in pain as well.

"I could never be angry with her." I look at him in disbelief.

He shrugs, "Luke is still in there with her. He hasn't left her side and I don't think he will unless she asks him to. So don't be mad if she doens't ask him to leave even if you're there. I don't know what happened at your house but Juliet was really scared and then I guess she passed out of anxiety." Michael informs me. This comes as a shock. Would she really be this scared of Nate to pass out? I nod to Michael and soon I'm running to Juliet's room.

But when I get there I wish I was at home in my bed. Alone. Anywhere but here. Juliet and Luke's bodies are intertwined on her tiny hospital bed and their breaths are slow. I feel a gut wrenching hurt rip through my heart. But I expected this. The tears fall and I grab a piece of paper laying around. It's small but blank. I want to explain to her. I try. But I have to get out of here. It hurts to much. So after scribbling all over one side I flip it over and just write the inevitable.

"We're over." - ASH