The Lonely Wanderer

Enlightening Talk

Sorry about the long wait.  And I'm also sorry about the shorter chapter.  But here it is.  Hope you enjoy.

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Kieran raised his eyebrows. "And he doesn't deem me worthy to keep you safe?"

I snorted. "Dean doesn't give out his trust. You have to earn it. And everything you've done so far has made him suspicious of you."

Kieran nodded. "Then how do I earn his trust?"

I smiled. "You have to prove yourself. You have to show him that you're on his side, that you're both willing and capable to fight the enemy, and that you don't consort with the enemy unless you're carrying out part of a plan."

Kieran rubbed a hand over his face. "I see. That is not going to be an easy process."

I shook my head. "No, it's not. Especially since you were already talking to Roman when I got there."

Kieran shrugged. "He is...was...my right hand man. I can't come back from Purgatory without getting a status report on things."

"True. But is that the only thing you were doing there?"

Kieran snorted. "Great. Now even my wife is doubting where my allegiances lie."

I sighed. "I'm not doubting you, Kieran. After all, you've always been there for me...when you weren't in Purgatory. But I have to be sure of whose side you're on. Sam, Dean, and Bobby are good men and I don't want to see them hurt. They've been betrayed too many times for me to let them be betrayed again."

Kieran sighed. "I understand. You're just being cautious."

I nodded. "But I'm still sorry."

Kieran sighed again before laying down next to me and putting his arm over my waist. "I know you are."

I smiled slightly. "Good." The weariness was closing in on me again and I closed my eyes. I snuggled closer to Kieran, content in knowing that he was there protecting me. But something still felt off. There was a slight nagging in the back of my mind telling me that maybe I shouldn't trust him, that he couldn't protect me.

I ignored that nagging feeling and brushed it off as being drowsy...but I didn't completely forget it. In that moment, I wished Dean was there instead of Kieran. I knew I could trust Dean and that he would protect me with his life. There were no surprises with Dean. I wasn't so sure about Kieran yet.

Despite my reservations about trusting Kieran, I quickly fell asleep.