Addicted

Chapter 19

"It's just me and you."
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"Are you nervous?" Ciara asked as I layed on the small bed at the doctor's office. It's been a week since Sammie's birthday and since I came to the realization that I might be pregnant.

I was scared to find out if I was or not so I didn't take a test or anything following that day. I wasn't in a rush anyways since I was no longer showing symptoms but about 3 days after the same thing had happened and I needed to know. We had brought me 3 tests and 2 said negative and one said positive and today was the day we would find out.

"Yea a little bit Ill be alright though." I sighed looking around the room.

I never thought of what would happen if I was pregnant. It was so surreal and I failed to believe there was a another human growing inside of me.

"Ms.Simone." my doctor said coming in smiling.

"Good afternoon."

"So tell me why you're here today." He said washing his hands and putting on gloves.

"Uh about a week ago I was experiencing some stomach pains and throwing up and things like that and I took a pregnancy test...well three and they gave me different answers so I guess I just need clarification."

"Well it isn't abnormal to receive different results when you take pregnancy tests depending on the amount of urine on the stick and accuracy is never assured so it's always best to go see your doctor or visit a clinic." He took out the necessities for the ultra sound and began to squeeze the cold gel on my stomach causing me to flinch a bit.

"When was your last menstrual cycle."

"Um I was on the pill on and off a few months ago so since then my menstrual has been irregular. I was actually p-pregnant a few months ago and I was still getting my period." He nodded and began to move around my stomach trying to see if I was indeed pregnant.

"Ms.Simone...." He said dragging out my name as he concentrated on the small black and white screen.

"Congratulations Ms.Simone." He said smiling and I looked at Ciara in shock.

"You're a little over eight weeks along."

"Congratulations J your gonna be a mommy." Ciara squealed but I was far from happy.

"I'm gonna go get your prescription for you prenatal pills and vitamins and then you'll be on your way. Congratulations again." He said smiling and walking out.

"Aren't you happy?" I took a deep breath and bit my lip.

"We're not even together anymore Ciara. I don't wanna bring my child into an unhappy home." She frowned at me already knowing what I was thinking.

"You're not getting an abortion Jayde. You have a babydaddy who wants to be in it's life and that not fair to Masiah. At least talk to him first." I nodded looking down at my stomach gently placing a hand on it. I was pregnant and this just made everything 100 times more complicated.

After we got out pills we headed out going to the car. We fell in a comfortable silence as the radio played softly in the background.

After a few minutes Ciara and I were sitting outside her house as I dropped her off. We had gotten some chipotle and I agreed on going to see Masiah after I dropped we off.

"I love you boo don't do anything irrational." I nodded and we hugged before saying goodbye.
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