Addicted

Chapter 21

"...I know you alright but my heart is still about to beat out my chest and I know God is giving me a chance to make it right..."
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M A S I A H

"Masiah." Honey said as I laid sleep on the couch.

"Masiah." She said a bit louder and I opened my eyes and looked at her waiting for her to speak.

Me and Honey wasn't together we was just cool. She obviously still had feeling which was why I planned on leaving her alone but she was good company. She could be a bitch to others but to me she was always down to earth and that's why I didn't mind being around her. It was sad but the only reason I been kicking it with her was to get my mind off of Jayde and I think she knew that but she acted like she didn't mind.

"Taj is on the phone." She said and I sat up knowing it was probably about business.

I took the phone from her and got up going back into my bedroom.

"Wassup?" I said clearing my throat and I heard him sigh.

"Jayde was in a car accident man."
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J A Y D E

I sat in the hospital confused and sore as hell. I had just woke up and Taj and Ciara was here. They had been acting weird towards eachother ever since they got here but now wasn't the time to see what had happened even though I knew something did. I just didn't know what.

The doctor was on his way up and I just wanted to know if my baby was okay. I had grown somewhat attached to him or her and I just wanted everything to be okay. I had decided not to get an abortion because I needed to deal with the consequences of my actions but I didn't want to have an abortion that I didn't ask for.

Taj had stepped out to make a phone all and when he came back a doctor was trailing behind him.

"Ms. Simone I'm glad your awake." I smiled small and twisted my lip.

"Is my baby okay?" I asked getting straight to the point.

He looked through the clip board for a while before looking at me but I couldn't read his face.

I was scared because I had already lost a child and I couldn't lose another one.

"Luckily the impact from the vehicle that hit you didn't affect your child everything's fine." I sighed in relief and nodded thanking him.

"Sadly Ms.Simone you're gonna be in a lot of untreated pain." I frowned because it was already unbearable and to know that it would only get worse was horrible.

"Why?"

"The medication you would take to ease the pain may be good for you but it could harm your baby your only 3 months and it's not the safest thing to do." After he said that all my pain seeming to go away. As long as my baby was okay.

"I'll be back to check on you in a few." I nodded and smiled. He reached for the door but it was opened before he could do it.

"Masiah?" I asked as his handsome face came to view and he looked at me and then at Taj and Ciara.

"Can y'all give me a minute?" He said to Taj and Ciara. Ciara got up but Taj stayed.

"Taj." I said sighing.

"Oh me too?" Ciara rolled her eyes and walked out.

"Roll em again Ima knock em back there permanently." He called after her as he walked out.

Masiah closed the door then looked at me before sitting beside my bed.

"You good?"

"I'm fine. Just a few fractured ribs but I'll be alright." He nodded and an awkward silence took over the room.

"Look you came and you see that I'm fine now so you can go." He sighed and ran his hand over his head as if he was thinking of the right thing to say.

"When Taj called me earlier and told me what happened my heart stopped. He sounded so scared and you know he's hardly ever scared and I automatically thought the worse. I drove thinking that I was about to lose you and I wanted to at least tell you that I loved you and that I was sorry for the dumb shit that happened. I know you alright but my heart is still about to beat out my chest and I know God is giving me a chance to make it right." He licked his bottom lip before grabbing my hand and kissing it keeping his eyes closed for a while. He opened them and looked into my eyes still holding my hand.

"Jayde I love you so much and I know I never told you and you probably don't feel the same way now but I do love you so much. I need you baby and this happening just showed me that all this ain't worth it. I just wanna be with you Jayde." I frowned biting my lip.

"I love you too." I said smiling as he smiled back and stood up kissing me.

"I'm sorry." I whispered against his lips but he shushed me.

"Wait." I said lowly pushing him a way.

"What?"

"What about Honey?" He shook his head.

"It was never like that I promise." I nodded and sighed figuring it was time to tell him.

"Masiah listen." I said taking a deep breath and he looked confused but gave me his full attention.

"Wassup?" I hesitated before speaking.

"I'm pregnant." I watched as his eyes widened but I didn't know if he was happy or mad. I couldn't tell.

"Forreal?" He said as his eyes got glossy and I smiled and nodded.

He stood up and for a second I thought he was gonna leave but instead he gently climbed into my bed making sure not to hurt me and he rested his hand on my small bump that was beginning to form since I was about 3 months.

"How long have you known?" I shrugged.

"A few weeks." He sat up a bit and looked at me with his face scrunched up.

"Why you ain't tell me."

"The day I came to your house I tried to but you wasn't tryna hear me out." He nodded looking sympathetic.

"I'm sorry." He said pecking my neck and I nodded.

"You having my baby." He said more so to himself and smiling.

I was happy that he was happy.