Dear Camila,
You and I grew closer again after a month or so of grieving together over the loss of Max. Not that we had never been close, just that during those times when you had been cooped up in your room depressed, you distanced yourself from me and it almost was like we had become strangers. But after a while you and I grew closer again. Closer than we had ever been in our lives because we had both shown a part of ourselves to each other that was new to us both.
I still don't know why god had to take such a precious and wanted child from us. I've never been religious but maybe Max had been an angel. Maybe he was never meant for us. Maybe he was only meant to test us and to make us grow closer. Maybe he had never been a part of our destiny after all. Destiny works in mysterious ways.
You and I grew closer as the months passed and eventually we went back to the way things used to be.Cuddling on the couch, sharing sweet kisses and binge watching pretty little liars together. While doing those things together something happened. It was almost like a miracle.
You were pregnant. Again.
We tried several times after you and I were both mentally prepared. And here we were again, in the white walls of a hospital room. Except this time our babies were fine. We had two adorable twins. Bella Nicole Cabello-Jauregui and Finn Alan Cabello-Jauregui.
We both sat in that hospital room after the twins were born and just admired them quietly. Finally. We had something that was a small piece of the both of us and I knew just by looking at them that those two babies were going to do greater things in life than you and I combined.
Bella looked so much like you, especially when her eyes started to change to that deep brown color that I love so much. And her hair. Her beautiful brown hair and her cute little smile and her chubby cheeks. It was impossible for me not to look at her and not be reminded of you. Finn on the other hand looked like me with his piercing green eyes and dark hair. These babies were ours and only ours.
We took them home to our family and Dinah surprised us with tons of clothes and toys while Ally andNormani provided us with two separate blankets with their names sewed onto them.
After everyone had left and we tucked Bella and Finn into bed, we stood above their cribs and looked down at them.
"Life worked out fine, don't you think?" I remember you whispering to me in the dark. It was almost tooquiet for me to hear.
I nodded "It did"
I turned around and kissed you deeply. We stood in an embrace and in our heads I knew we were bothpraying. Thanking whatever or whoever was above, for our well deserved surprise.
I thought I loved you when I first met you. I thought I loved you on our first date or the day we got married or the first time we made love. I thought I loved you then, but I love you so much more in that moment.
Sincerely,
Lauren Jauregui
