Dear Camila,
I always wished that I too could have a great relationship with my sister or brother like you had with Sofia when she was still alive. You would always tell me stories about you guys together and show me the cute pictures of you guys at the beach or at you grandparents' house. You always spoke so high about her even though she had been gone for so long. She was a mini you and you loved her more than anything in the world, even more than you loved me because family comes first and she had your heart before I ever did.
On Sofia's birthday one year, you gave birth to our fourth and last child, Sofia Andrea Cabello-Jauregui. You named her after your sister because you found it no coincidence that she had been born the same day as your sister. I didn't protest because even I loved the thought of having another Sofia around. Of course she would never be Sofia, but it was such an honor for us to name our child after her.
Maybe that's why you had such a great relationship with our child Sofia more than the others. Maybe it was because you missed your sister, or maybe it was simply because she reminded you of your sister. I would and still don't understand it.
I hovered over you and looked into her tiny cute little face as you stroked her pink cheek. Her eyes had been closed and she was wrapped up in yellow.
"Sofia" I heard you say. I stayed silent, not saying anything. I just let you have your moment. "Sofia Andrea Cabello-Jauregui. That's her name" You had told me as you looked up at me with wide brown eyes. Your eyes were such a light color in that moment. They were a color I had never seen them before, and they looked absolutely stunning.
Sofia wrapped her small hand around my pointer finger and yawned. I smiled. "Hello Sofia, My name ismomma"
The touch of a child is something that is never forgotten even if you try. There's just something about a small touch of innocence from you very own child that gets to you. Sofia, looks so much like you today Camz. It scares me sometimes to even look at her anymore because all I can see in her are those perfect brown eyes and that bubbly personality. She's just like you. I wish you could see her.
Sincerely,
Lauren Jauregui
