while we are young / halsey

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oath
ōTH/
noun
1.
a solemn promise, often invoking a divine witness, regarding one's future action or behavior.

i was alone, i was high, i was raped. i couldnt stop crying as a pounded on the door that was locked from the outside so i couldnt leave.
screaming, crying for someone to help. no one came. i could hear a pillowtalk remix come on louder than any of the other songs. i sighed in between tears. i laid down on the cool marble and fell asleep.

"hayden, wake up."
"wake up, its okay."
"come on, red. please wake up."
harlequin was knelt next to my body. the moment i saw her i started crying again, harder this time. she immediately helped me sit up and held me.
"what happened, red?" she asked calmly, "did you hallucinate?"
i shook my head no.
"come on, hayden. what happened to you??"
i didnt want to say it out loud. i felt disgusting. i felt like an idiot for allowing it to happen.
"i-i was-" i started.
"you were...?"
"someone raped me," i cried out. i looked up at her porcelain face and she looked like she just watched her family get shot.
"who raped you?"
"i dont know. i couldnt see his face. I recognized his voice but i cant put it to a face."
"okay. what was the last thing you remember before he raped you?"
"someone- i dont remember who, saying that we should go dance."
"you never followed us out of the bathroom. we thought you did, but we looked for a while. have you been in the bathroom the whole time?"
"yes."
i kept crying as she held me. the cocaine was starting to fade off, which means id been missing for at least 3 hours. harlequin seemed perfectly calm, but i could see in her
eyes she was angry.
"after dancing for a bit augustus got a call from luca saying that luca needed him at his house asap, and benson and some girl went to her house, and ashley had a panic attack and had X drive her home. X and i are the only ones still here. charlie even dropped by for a bit because he heard there was meth, but after he got what he needed he left." harlequin stated while stroking my hair. "we will find who did this to you and make him pay."
"thank you," i whispered.
"lets get you home." she stood up, and i followed her out of the bathroom and into the main party. it was almost 2 am, and there were still over a thousand people here still. we walked into the kitchen hand in hand to find X dealing some electric green liquid to a group of people i didn't recognize.
when he saw harlequin, his green eyes lit up the entire room. when he shifted his sight onto me, his face dropped.
"we need to go, X." harlequin said.
he nodded in agreement, and we walked though the living room and out the large front door.