The Diary of Seraphina...

Entry Sixteen...

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I can't believe Ryder is such a player! All along, I thought that he was a guy that doesn't play with feelings. I'm rethinking my choices in friends now. I let him into my life just because of a long time crush. I let my feelings get in the way of proper judgement.

What if Hunter turns out the same? I can't even categorise him together with Ryder. I know Hunter is different but I do have doubts because if Ryder could lie through his teeth, what makes me think Hunter can't?

I'm just so confused right now. My gut feeling says Hunter is definitely not like him but I'm just not in the right state of mind right now.

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As usual, I was at the bookstore but not before Amaryllis shook me by my shoulders and told me to cheer up. She wanted to take me on a retail therapy but I just wasn't in the mood. I much preferred the company of books right now.

Hunter has been giving me sidelong glances ever since I stepped into the store. Are my feelings showing on my face? Probably. I was on break now and hadn't uttered a single word. I know, I feel bad for giving Hunter the cold shoulder but I just felt crushed.

"Okay, what's up? Not even a single 'Hello' or a smile. Tell me, are you alright?" asked Hunter worriedly. Now I feel even more guilty for ignoring him.

I sighed. "I probably didn't mentioned Ryder to you." At the mention of Ryder's name, Hunter tensed up.

"Ryder? What's his full name?" asked Hunter carefully. "Ryder Greene. He's the only Ryder I know."

He sighed. I was confused. Why was he sighing? "You're probably confused to my reaction," he said as if reading my thoughts. "Ryder. Well, he's my cousin from my mum's side of the family."

If my jaw could drop now, it would. Ryder is Hunter's cousin? How can he be related to someone like that? I can't even fathom. "He's always causing mischief. What'd he do this time?" asked Hunter.

I wasn't sure if telling Hunter about Ryder's cravings would be appropriate given that they're both cousins. "Are the both of you close?" I asked curiously. "Nope. Not close but close enough to know that he's not really a bad guy. I haven't seen him since a year ago. But I guess a year could change a person," said Hunter thoughtfully.

I was curious about something. "Hey, is Ryder a player?" Hunter seemed to be thinking about it. He shook his head. "Not that I know of. He only has one girlfriend." Hold on a minute. Hunter said 'has' instead of 'had'. Does that mean Ryder has a girlfriend now? That actually makes me the third person without me knowing.

"You said 'has' and not 'had', am I right?"

He looked confused. "Well, yeah. Isn't he still with Cadence?" Who is this Cadence Hunter is talking about? I don't know of anyone by that name in Rosethorn High. Unless, she happens to be in another school! Or country for that matter. "Does she live in another country?" I asked just to clear my doubts.

"If I'm not wrong, she moved to somewhere in Australia. She lived here before that though."

Maybe her moving could have something to do with Ryder's behaviour. I'm sure that he actually is a sweet person inside.

I felt better. Ryder wouldn't be a cold blooded person, right? But if he still is with this Cadence girl, why is he sort of cheating behind her back? Unless Jessica's real name is Cadence but that is highly unlikely. I decided not to ask Hunter about it.