Harry's POV:
Last night Stella met my family. She fit in so well, I could tell that they loved her as much as I do. My mum is so shocked that I met someone that I have fallen in love with. While Stella was in the shower last night, mum and Gemma brought up an old photo album for me to look at. "Harry I am so happy for you, she is amazing." my mum said as her eyes filled up with tears. "Don't cry mum, and I know, she is amazing." I tell her. Little did she know that we weren't actually dating... We were 'friends'. I can't stand the fact that I don't get to kiss her whenever I want to, that I don't get to hold her hand whenever I want to, and that I can't tell her I love her. The worst part about all of this is that she is so close to me, yet so far. This whole 'pretending' game is dangling our relationship right in front of me and it sucks. The only good thing about it is that my mum paired us in the same room and I get to sleep with her every night for a week. Last night she scooted herself all the way to the edge of the bed staying as far away from me as possible. I wrapped my arms around her and pulled her close to me. It's one thing to act like we are dating when we aren't but another thing to sleep in the same bed as me but not be in my arms. Whether she pulls away or not, I just want to have her close to me. Thankfully, she stayed right where she belongs. With me.
I woke up feeling more relaxed then I have in the past month. Stella's small arms are wrapped around my waist. I want to stay like this for as long as possible because I know that as soon as she wakes up she is going to realize what we are doin and pretend that this never happened. I kiss her forehead lightly making sure to not wake her. I miss her so much it hurts. I know she feels the same way about me but she is fighting her feelings for a reason unknown to me. I want to know what is stopping her. I want to know what is making her afraid of being with me. I will do whatever it takes to break down that wall, I've done it once and I can do it again.
Her eyes slowly flutter open and she has a smile on her face. She realizes that her arms are around me and immediately she pulls away. "Sorry I didn't mean to..." she says rubbing her eyes sitting up in the bed. "Don't worry about it." I tell her hiding the fact that it hurts me. "Did you sleep okay?" I ask her changing the subject. "Better than I have in a while." she tells me getting out of the bed and pulling her long brown hair into a bun on her head. "Me too." I agree. There was a knock on the door as Stella put on a pair of sweat pants and a white long sleeve shirt. "Come in," I call out. I hate the fact that she is comfortable enough to change in front of me knowing that I can't do anything about it. Gemma walks hugs Stella. "Morning love birds" Gemma says smiling. Little does she know... "Morning!" Stella replies going along with the lie. I smile at my sister. She has always been such a morning person. I used to hate that about her because I am the least pleasant person to be around in the morning but now that I am away from her for so long, its one of the things that I miss the most about her. "Stella, I was hoping that you and I could spend the day together. Harry do you mind?" Gemma says. "I would love to!" Stella responds smiling. "Yeah go ahead. I'm going to meet up with some old friends anyways." I tell her. "Just give me 10 minutes" Stella tells Gemma and she nods and leaves the room. The October weather in Holmes Chapel is pretty chilly but today the sun was shining. "You're okay with me hanging out with your sister right?" Stella asks scanning my eyes. "Yeah of course, just try not to listen to all her embarrassing stories of me alright?" I tell her blushing. "I would love to know what kinds of embarrassing things you did as a kid." she laughs. "Alright, I'm going to change." she says pulling some clothes from her bag as she walks out the door to the bathroom.
Stella's POV:
I slept so well last night and the reason behind that was falling asleep in Harry's arms. As much as I need to stay friends with him, my heart aches every time he touches me. I wish I wasn't always so afraid to let people in. I trusted Harry, he broke my trust regardless of the situation and now my walls have been put back up. I can't help it, it's just the way it is. I walked to the bathroom and changed into a pair of dark skinny jeans and a cream coloured sweater. I wrapped a tan coloured scarf around my neck and let my hair down. I straightened it before we came here so all I needed to do was brush it out. I slipped my feet into a pair of black knee high boots and swiped some mascara on my lashes. I grabbed a chap stick out of my purse and applied it to my lips. I walked out of the bathroom and went back into the room. "Alright, so I'll see you tonight then?" I asked Harry seeing him standing there in nothing but his jeans. Wow. "Yeah, I'll text you if anything changes." he replied smirking at me. "Okay, see you later, have a good day." I said giving Harry a friendly hug. He wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me as close to him as possible. I took a deep breath trying to savour this moment. When we released I smiled weakly at him and walked out the door.
