Stella's POV:
I slept all night last night and was asleep for most of the day today. I don't know what to do. I told Niall to do his best to make sure that Harry doesn't talk to me mostly because if I look at him I know I will forgive him. I didn't even give him a chance to explain himself yesterday. I was so angry and I still am. There is nothing to explain. As much as I wish there was, he allowed the kiss to happen either way and if he really didn't want to, he wouldn't have. That's all there is to it. I have been lying in my bed all day and poor Cristina has been so worried about me. She checks on me every hour making sure that I'm okay and that I don't need anything. Maybe this is good, now I can focus on my music without any distractions. I should have never gotten into a relationship so soon anyways. What was I thinking? However, that being said, I fell for Harry hard and fast. It didn't take much for him to make me fall in love. His eyes, I melted every time I looked into them. His lips were so soft and the way he kissed me, I have never felt that way about anyone before. The way he made me feel beautiful and wanted every day. He ruined it all. I need to forget him. I looked at my phone to check the time. It was 2:45pm and I had about 10 missed calls and 8 texts all from Harry. I deleted them without reading or opening them and got out of bed. I went to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I look awful. My eyes are puffy and red from crying and despite the amount of sleep that I got, I look exhausted. There is no way I will be able to put my contacts in so I put on my thick black rimmed glasses. I brushed my wild hair and tied it up in a bun and brushed my teeth. I threw on a pair of jeans and a sweatshirt and walked into the kitchen. Cristina was on the couch watching an old rerun of Friends. She turned at looked at me with a sympathetic smile. "Hey, how are you feeling?" she said standing up from the couch. "I've been better." I respond flashing her a fake smile. "Why are you dressed?" she asked me moving closer to where I was standing. "Well, I'm starving and I think I need some fresh air. I'm going to walk to the salad bar around the corner." I told her putting on my black converse. "I'll come with you" Cristina said slipping her feet into a black pair of Toms. I grabbed my purse and we headed out. We walked in silence until we reached the cute little London restaurant. We both piled our plates high with salad and bread. We found a table and sat ourselves and began to eat. 'Stel, I know you're hurting but please talk to me, I want to know what you're feeling so I can comfort you." Cristina said staring into my eyes. One of my worst qualities is being so closed off when it comes to my feelings. I can't help it and I just don't like to let other people in for some reason. I think it may be because every time I share my feelings with someone, I end up getting hurt. Harry for example. I told him I loved him and he broke my heart. However, I owe it to Cristina to tell her how I'm feeling. She left her entire life in Toronto behind to help me follow my dream. "I don't know, I'm mostly hurt that he didn't even tell me about it as soon as it happened. If it really was a mistake, he would have come to me right away and told me, but instead he hid it from me and I had to find out through a stupid TV gossip show. I can't believe I let myself get into a relationship so quickly. I knew it was a bad idea. I'm always the one that gets hurt. I'm better off by myself." I confessed. Cristina listened intently. "You're right Stella, its the fact that he didn't come clean about it right away. That's what makes it so shady. You are absolutely right. But Stella, not every guy is like that and I am so proud of you that you took a chance with Harry. You let him in and that was such a big step for you." she tells me. "Oh God. What am I going to do? I told my family that Harry was going to come with me to meet them before the tour! They were right, Alex was right. What am I going to tell them? Oh my God, the tour? I am going to see him every single day for a year." I say. I can feel the tears falling down my face. What am I going to do? "Hey, calm down, breathe Stel, its going to be fine. You don't have to tell anyone anything yet. And as for the tour, Stella this is your dream You have worked your whole life harder than anyone I know to get to where you are today. You can't let this get in the way of that. You of all people deserve the best. Stella, your first single ever released has MILLIONS of views, people are so excited about you and they love you! Do this for them. Harry was just something that happened, and who knows, maybe you guys can work something out." Cristina says wiping my tears. She really is the best friend in the world. No wait, she isn't. She is the best sister in the world. "Thank you, somehow you always know what to say. You're absolutely right, Harry was just a distraction and now I have 100% focus on my music. I need to move on from Harry, as hard as that will be, I need to do it. I need to stay away from him for a while because I know that if I see him, if I look into his gorgeous emerald eyes, I will forgive him. I need to be as far away from him as I can." I tell Cristina confident with my choice. It won't be easy getting over him because I truly do love him with all of my heart, but it's what is best for me right now. "Alright, I will do whatever it takes to get that determined, hard working, beautiful Stella back! Let's go, there is an amazing ice cream shop around the corner and I think a chocolate cone is exactly what we need right now" Cristina says smiling. We paid for our salads and headed out. So that's it, Harry and I are over. It didn't last, but this is what is best for me right now. If only it didn't hurt so bad...
