Stella's POV:
Reading all those comments really made me feel awful. I love my fans and I know that Harry loves his. I don't want to upset any of them but I love Harry more than anything and I don't know what I would do without him. I fell asleep last night before Harry came in the room. Now I am tangled in his arms and the sun is shining through the window. I feel awful. I untangle myself from Harry being careful not to wake him and head to the bathroom. When I look in the mirror I am not surprised to see that my eyes are almost swollen shut and my face is all blotchy and red from crying. I don't want Harry or anyone to see me like this. I need to wash my face to try and make myself look as normal as possible. I run the cold water through the tap for a few minutes to make sure it's as cold as it can get and I splash the icy cold water on my face. Once I'm done, I look in the mirror again. Much better, the cold water helped reduce the puffiness in my eyes and for the most part, the redness is gone. Though somehow, I still feel horrible.
"Stel, are you alright?" Harry calls out tapping lightly on the bathroom door. "Um, yeah." I answer. "Open the door." he says and I check myself in the mirror one last time. I walk over to the door and unlock it. Harry is sanding in front of me with nothing but a pair of black boxer briefs on. His eyes search mine. "Is everything okay baby?" he asks me reaching his hand up to lightly caress my cheek. My eyes flutter closed beneath his touch. "Yeah, everything's fine." I tell him doing my best to sound sincere. "Are you sure? Something seems off with you, is it what happened last night with the paparazzi?" he asks still searching my eyes. "No it's nothing honestly, I'm just not feeling so great." I tell him squeezing his hand. "Okay." he says bringing my hand to his lips and placing a soft kiss on the top of my hand. "Come on, breakfast is ready out there, Cristina ordered room service." Harry says leading me out to the kitchen. "Good morning you two!" Cristina says greeting us. Her eyes dart to me and she immediately knows something's up. Shit, I can't get anything past her. "Morning Cristi." I say back smiling at her. "Hey guys." I greet the boys. "What's on the agenda for today?" Niall asks. "Well I was hoping we could go to the beach and just spend some time there hanging out." Louis says. "Yeah that's a great idea!" Zayn and Harry say at the same time. "Are you guys in?" Liam asks looking at Cristina and I. " I am!" Cristina responds smiling. "Um actually guys, I think I'm just gonna stay here today, I am so tired and I'm not feeling great. I'm going to try to get some rest." I say turning my attention to the floor which seems much more interesting at the moment. Cristina gives me a look and I just shrug. "It's been a long few weeks and I think I just need some rest." I say again and they nod. "Alright, we will miss you today though!" Liam says rubbing my back. "I will stay here with Stella then, you guys go on ahead." Harry says. "No, no, Harry go! I will be fine, I promise, I just need some time." I reassure him. "I don't want to leave you on your own though." he says looking worried. I laugh. "Harry, I'm a big girl, I think I will be okay for a few hours on my own." I tell him. "Okay." he says "Alright then we should go get ready." Zayn says and within seconds, everyone disappears into their rooms. I climb back into the bed and watch Harry gather his things. "It won't be as much fun without you baby." he says as he pulls a white t-shirt over his head. "Yes it will be, you guys are going to have a great time!" I tell him tossing a pillow his way. "Yeah, yeah." he says rolling his eyes. "When I get back, we are going out for dinner or ice cream at least." he says leaning over on the bed placing a kiss on my forehead. My heart flutters. "Okay." I agree. "Get some rest and call me if you need anything at all okay?" he asks. "Okay. Have fun." he I tell him. "I'll try." he says kissing my lips softly. "I love you baby." he says between kisses. "I love you too." I tell him.
Shortly after Harry leaves the room Cristina barges in. "Okay, what's with you." she says sitting at the edge of my bed. "Nothing, really. I'm just so exhausted after everything these past few weeks." I tell her doing my best to sound sincere. "Stella, I have known you my whole life and I can tell that something's up." she says raising an eyebrow at me. "Cristina I'm serious, I just need some rest, that's all. I promise." I tell her hiding my crossed fingers under the blanket. "If you say so, but if you want to talk later, I am here. You know that." she says half smiling at me. "I know. Have fun today!" I tell her leaning over and hugging her. "Thanks, get some rest." she says covering me with the blanket. She gives me a small waves and exits the room.
I spent the day sleeping, scrolling through twitter and checking the online tabloids. I couldn't help myself. I don't understand what I have done wrong, or why people are so horrible. I have seen awful things that people have said about me today and I can't believe it. These comments are coming from people who don't even know me. They have never met me and they are saying horrible things about me that aren't even true. After reading one two many hate messages, I decide to call my mom. She always knows what to say. "Hey mommy." I say into the phone. "Hi baby girl, how are you?" she asks, worry laced through her voice. "Search my name on google or twitter." I tell her. After a minute or so of silence, I hear her gasp. She found it. "Oh baby, I'm so sorry." she says. "What have I done mom? Why do they hate me?" I ask her, tears start to form in my eyes. "Nothing honey, you've done nothing wrong. The people writing these comments are people who are not happy with themselves. They try to make themselves feel better by bringing other people down. Look at you baby, look how far you've come in just the past few months. You have worked so hard to get to where you are, don't let these people or comments bring you down." she says. "But mom, it's so hard to ignore it all." I tell her between sobs. "Stella listen to me, there will always be people that will try to bring you down but you just need to let it roll off your shoulders. They are nothing to you. Focus on the good and ignore the bad. Yes you may have 'haters' but look at how many people love you! You have millions of fans already and you have only just started. I promise you baby, it will get easier." she says. I don't know how she does it, but I feel one hundred percent better. "Thank you mommy, you're right. I love you so much and I miss you." I tell her wiping my tears. "Oh baby, I miss you too. Stella, you can call me at anytime if you need anything okay? And please promise me you will talk to Harry about this. I know that you are probably keeping this from him because you don't want to worry him, but he can help you through this as well." she says. She's right. He has a right to know how I feel. "Okay. I love you mom." I tell her. "I love you too baby girl. Talk to you soon okay?" she says. "Okay, bye." I say hanging up the phone.
Just as I hang up, I hear the front door open. Oh, they are home. I walk out into the living room. "How was it?" I ask everyone as they walk in. "Great. Are you feeling any better?" Zayn asks taking a seat on the couch. "Yes, much better thank you." I smile. "Harry, can I talk to you?" I ask him and he nods following me into the bedroom.
Thank you for the reads! Hope you guys enjoy this chapter! Comment below letting me know what you think! Thanks! Lots of love.
xoxo,
Stella
