My First Love

8

Chapter 8

Lahat kami nakatitig lang kay George ngayon. Nandito kami sa bahay nila.. Itinapon na rin namin sa basurahan iyong mga naiwang kalat kanina na dapat inuwi ni Ezra.

"Okay lang ako. Iwan nyo na muna ako.."

Umiling kaming lahat na syang nagpatawa sakanya. "Ano ba kayo? Mas affected pa kayo, ha? Hindi ako magpapakamatay, mga ggong 'to!"

"Now that you've mentioned it, lalo lang kaming hindi aalis. We'll stay here with you." sabi ko. Nilingon ako ni Jana kaya napayuko ako.

"May mga pasok pa tayo kinabukasan, sige na.."

"Hoy, Georgina Lacuesta! Wag mo kaming inaartehan ng ganyan, ha?" si Abbi.

Sa totoo lang magkasing-laki lang iyong bahay namin sakanila. Iyon nga lang wala silang pool area. Sadyang OA lang talaga syang magreact noong unang beses nya sa bahay.

"Brave, mag-stay kayo nila Sarah at Abbi dito kay George.. Balik kaming pito dito bukas. May problema rin kasi si Niña, e." diniin talaga ni Jana iyong pangalan ako which made them look at me.

"Huh? Then we should all stay with her. Bakit di mo sinabi sakin na may problema ka?"

"Well, you're busy dealing with your own life, Georgina."

Sasagot pa sana ito pero sumingit na ako.. Alam ko namang maraming tanong si Jana at gusto nyang maliwanagan.

"Okay lang ako, G. Magpahinga ka na lang. Sasamahan naman nila ako sa bahay, e."

Nagpaalam na kaming pito sakanila pati sa magulang at kuya nito. Pagkarating namin sa bahay ay hinayaan muna nila akong magbihis..

"Ano'ng problema mo, Nins?" tanong ni Josh at Prey sakin.

Nilingon ko lang si Jana at Nath. For sure alam na ni Nath 'to. "Ano.. Kasi.." Sht! I can't find any words to say! Dmn! Why is this so freaking hard?!

"C'mon, Nins, let us know! Let them know!" Jana told almost yelling at me.

"What is it?" tanong naman ni Gerda. Alam kong naguguluhan na sila, maging ako rin naman ay naguguluhan din!

I took a deep breathe and look at them. "I know it may seem weird.. But... I think I kind of like her."

"What? Who's 'her'?!" they chorused. Well, only the four of them. Jana and Nath knows it and I think they're just waiting for my confirmation.

"Georgina. I think I like Georgina. It alarms me." I nervously confessed.

I looked at them. Ang dami na nilang sinasabi na ni isa ay hindi ko naman maintindihan! They are furious..

"I know.. I know it's weird to like someone like her for I am straight!"

"Well, I don't think you still are." Jana said.

"I am! Straight ako! I know I am!"

They all sighed. Lumapit sila sakin at isa-isa akong niyakap.. I felt their warmth and so my eyes started to water.

"No matter what.. We'll be your friends. We'll stay and we'll support." it was Josh.

"But Nins, they just broke up.. Ezra and George just broke up."

"Prey, I know. It's not like I am going to confess to her! Hell, no!"

"But George should about this.. or not?" Shae seems to be confused.

"I don't think na kailangan na nyang malaman. Let's wait for Nins decision though.."

"Yeah. Jana's right.. I am new to this. I can't fall for her deeply. I just need some time to think about this. Maybe I was just attached to her these past few weeks.. We go out together and we got along too fast." tinalikuran ko sila at saka nagpunta sa balcony. Naramdaman ko naman ang pagsunod nilang lahat sa akin.

"Then we'll respect it.."

Nang natahimik kami ay nagpasya na silang umuwi.. Hahayaan na daw muna nila akong magisip ng mabuti. Aminado naman akong kailangan ko ngang mapag-isa ngayong gabi.

Pagkahiga ko ay pinilit kong ipinipikit ang mga mata ko nagbabaka sakali na dalawin na rin ako ng antok pero hindi, e. Ang daming mga tanong na pumapasok sa isipan ko...

Sure, I accepted my friends to what they really are.. But here's the questions clouding my mind. Gaano ako ka-hypocrite? Na halos maghysteria ako noong nalaman ko ang pagiging ganito ng mga kaibigan ko? Paano na iyong iisipin nila tungkol sakin? Handa ba ako sa lahat ng mga maririnig ko sa mga taong nakapaligid sa akin?

Napapikit ako ng mariin at ramdam ko ang pagpatak ng mga luha ko.. Sobrang dami ng mga tanong na halos alam ko ang sagot but I refuse to acknowledge the answers!

"No.. I'm not yet ready. I don't know how to face the world when I don't even know how to face my own self!"

Then before I shut my eyes and rest myself.. I made up my mind to forget about me liking Georgina. I'll try to continue my life na kinasanayan ko na. Maybe I need to socialize to meet people.. Hopefully to meet someone.

I parked my car at lumabas ng sasakyan. Good thing na wala pa iyong mga kaibigan ko.. Hinagilap ko ang shoulderbag ko at saka naglakad papuntang Oval at umupo sa isa sa mga benches.

"I just hope I made the right decision." I was close to closing my eyes.

"I know you did." halos mapasigaw ako sa gulat ng may nagsalita sa tabi ko.

"You almost cussed."

"It's because you startled me! It wasn't nice to barge into someone's thought, mister."

He smirked at me. "I know. I'm sorry.." umupo sya sa tabi ko at humarap sakin.

Well, he's kind of neat. Neat? Seriously?! I mean.. He's a beautiful and tall man. What a cliché drama I have! Last night, I was just asking for someone to divert my attention and now there's this man in front of me.

"You're spacing out. Done checking me?" he laughed. Well it somehow made me smile a little.

"Arrogant."

"I am.. Oh! How rude of me! I'm Kiethly, by the way. Kiethly Baltazar.."

"How are you related to--"

"Anthony Baltazar? He's my father." he looked away and set his eyes on the students in the field.

"Oh. So you're the son of my father's best friend. Nice to see you again, Kiethly."

My childhood then came flooding my mind, how I became friends with my father's best friends' son.

"Yeah. It's nice to be sitting here beside you again, Denisse.. I missed you."