I need you here with me // Carl Grimes [EDITING]

Seventy One - The Perfect Silence.

"Okay! You can come with us! But when we find your dad I'm gonna tell him you held me at gun point to get me to bring you, is that okay with you?"

Rick shook his head at the two of us and let out a small chuckle as he pinched the bridge of his nose, Luke laughed a little too but I was serious. We had to find my dad he was one of the last things I had left, he was the most important person in my life if I didn't have him, I had nothing left to lose.

"Let's go!"

I sat myself down in between Carl and Sasha, with my arms wrapped tightly around my knees and my knees pressed beneath my chin.

"Are you okay?"

"I'm fine..." I lied, "I just need my dad."

"We'll find him."

"You shouldn't make promises you can't keep." I ducked my head between my knees

"I'm not lying to you, we'll find him."

I shuffled slightly away from him mainly because I wanted to distance myself from him incase my dad was dead or something like that, I knew I'd shut him out.

And after all Carl wasn't my main priority, my dad and my brother and Maggie and Michonne and Rosita and Glenn were. I had to keep my brother alive and I needed to know Maggie and her baby wouldn't die, they needed a doctor desperately and time was running out for them, whilst Michonne, Rosita, Glenn, my practical brother, and my Dad had all been taken by the saviours and I was going to fight to save them, whether that meant I died or the saviours did.

Carl sighed and forcefully wrapped a arm around me, pulling me against his chest.

"Just take a nap, okay? Be peaceful." He pressed a kiss to my hairline and for once I decided to listen to him, I wrapped my arms around his waist and let my eyes droop shut and it hit me harder than ever how in love I really was with Carl, I didn't know what it was but I loved him more than myself and maybe it was just because I was scared to lose him, but I was so in love with him and I wouldn't ever be able to comprehend how much.

"Ah bitch!"

Abraham with his absurd swearing woke me form my sleep and we came to a sudden stop but I still didn't leave Carl's side, my arms wrapped even tighter around him and he smiled at me before running a hand over my hair, perhaps to reassure me before he headed to the front of the RV. I followed him to the front and my eyes lay upon the sight of a group of Saviours who blocked off the road ahead, we were in around equal numbers yet I decided to head to the back of the RV and stay with Maggie.

"Hey..." I spoke softly

"Hey..."

I sat down on a stray stool in the corner of the room and pulled it up beside Maggie's bed, she smiled weakly at me and I grimaced, hating to see her in pain.

"Are you in pain?" I asked

"My whole life is a pain..."

I tried to laugh at her attempt of a joke but something stopped me because secretly I was terrified I was going to lose Maggie and her baby, she was the closest thing I had to a mother, a sister and a best friend rolled into one and I couldn't lose her, I'd lost so many people and despite the fact we weren't physically related, she was my family.

"Lydia?"

"Yeah Maggie?"

"Do you think I'm dying?"

I shook my head, biting back my lip as a small tear slipped from my eye, "You're not dying Maggie."

She let out shallow breaths each one sounding more unsteady than the last and for a moment, I was scared she was dying and I prayed to God she wasn't.