Secrets (Luke Brooks Fan Fic)

Making Things Awkward

Chapter 4

I woke up the next morning with Luke next to me. He was still sleeping so I got up as slowly and quietly as I can. I guess it didn't work because as I was going to swing my leg over, Luke held on to my waist and brought me down to my chest. "Don't leave, stay here with me" he said with his eyes still closed. "No Luke, I want to get up" I said trying to get off of him. "No stay, if you leave, all the warmth will go away" he said snuggling into my neck. "Luke stop" I said trying to push off his chest. "Please" he said opening his eyes and giving me the puppy eye look. "Fine" I sighed, rolling my eyes. "You love me said" he said smirking."Unfortunately yes I do" I said. He rolled his eyes. I layed on his chest and started to play with his shirt. He played with my hair and started to sing. "Babe" he said randomly. "Yea?" I said. "Why did you leave the dinner table last night?" he asked looking down at me. "I had a lot on my mind and I couldn't stay at the table" I said still playing with his shirt as if it was the most interesting thing in the world. "What were you thinking about?" he asked confused. I just shook my head, not wanting to tell him. "Come on babe, tell me" he said, rubbing my back. "It's just that, it was so awkward at dinner last night and I felt like I caused the awkwardness" I said trying not to cry. "Why do you think that?" he questioned. "Because of what happened between Beau and I" I said. "Oh" was all that he said. "Babe, don't worry about that, you didn't cause anything" he said smiling down at me. "Yes I did cause that, I've been causing a lot of trouble here lately and i've only been here for a day" I said as a tear ran down my face. "Babe, tell me one thing that you did that has caused trouble" he said. "The fight Beau and I had" I said. "But that fight wasn't your fault" he said. "Yes it was, if I have never gone to his room, none of this would have never happened" I said getting slightly annoyed. "But things will still be awkward because he is mad at you" he said getting annoyed to. "Yea but.." Luke cut me off. "Babe, you are being too hard on yourself. You need to stop blaming yourself for every little thing that happens" he said. I didn't say anything I just laid there still playing with Luke's shirt. "Look at me" he said and that's when the tears started to fall. "Don't cry babe" he said putting his arms around my waist. "It's just everything happens around me and I'm so use to being the reason for why that stuff happens that it makes me want to die" I said hiding my face in Luke's chest. He rubbed my back and kissed the top of my head. "Don't think like that, if you die, I wouldn't have anyone to love anymore" he said getting upset at the thought of me being gone forever. "You're the only reason I haven't killed myself yet" I said looking up at him. "What?? You tried to kill yourself before" he said in shock. I nodded my head yes and looked away. He didn't say anything. I looked up at him and he was just zoned out, like if what I said put him into shock. "Babe?" I said waving my hand in front of his face. He snapped out of it and looked at me. He hugged me tighter and just said "please don't ever leave me, I don't know what I would do if you were gone forever" he said. "Ok" was all I said. He gave me a kiss and said "I love you." I smiled and said "I love you too." "Always and forever" Luke said. I smiled and laid my head back on his chest. Gina walked into the room and told us to get up for breakfast. She left the room and we got up to get breakfast. I got off of Luke and went to the kitchen. He followed. I saw that Jai was already there, which is shocking because he is always the last one to wake up. "Good morning Jai" I said giving him a hug. He hugged me back and continued to eat. I sat down and Gina gave me a plate of food. "Thanks Gina" I said. "Your welcome hun" she said and walked away. Everyone ate quietly like last night at dinner. I started to get upset again. I guess Luke noticed because he put his hand on my lap and smiled at me. I tried to relax a bit and kept saying to myself that it's not my fault that all this is happening. No matter how many times I said it, I didn't believe myself. Every time I said it, it just made me even more upset. Luke leaned over and whispered in my ear "relax, don't think about it." But no matter how hard I tried, I couldn't get my mind off of it. Some people might think that I am just being dramatic but the reason that I am feeling like this is because, I feel like I am turning them against Beau or I'm destroying their family and it makes me feel like crap. "Hun, are you ok?" I heard Gina say. I wondered why she asked me that. I felt my face and I noticed that I had tears coming down. I must of started crying and not noticed, which is weird. "Yea i am fine" I said. "May I be excused" I said. She nodded yes and I got up and went to Luke and Jai's room. I laid down on Luke's bed and tried to calm down. I eventually calmed down and went on my phone to check my notifications. I heard someone come in but I didn't bother to look up. "Ariel" I heard someone say. "Yes?" I looked up and saw that it was Jai that came in. "Are you ok" he said looking worried. "Yea i'm fine, why do you ask?" I said trying to play dumb. "Because you left the table yesterday and today without a reason and you were crying" he said. "Well it's nothing" I said going back to my phone. Jai came up to me and took my phone away. "Hey?" I said. "Ariel, I know it's not nothing, there must be something that is making you this upset and i'm not leaving until you tell me what it is" he said sitting beside me on Luke's bed. I sighed. Knowing Jai, he will not give up, even if it lasts a week, he will not leave. He's just like Luke, hard headed. Well they're twins so it doesn't surprise me. I laughed at the thought and got a weird look from Jai. I just shook my head to say it's nothing. Hours flew by and I started to get very tired of having Jai next to me. I love him and all but having him in my personal space makes me mad especially if it's for hours. "Fine Jai I will tell you" I said. He smiled. He turned to face me in the bed and waited for me to start. I took a deep breath and started. "The reason I have been upset lately is because, I feel like I am the reason why dinner and breakfast was awkward" I said not looking at Jai. "Breakfast was awkward?" Jai said with a confused face. I just looked at him with a "are you stupid" face. "Yes it was awkward, no one was talking and when I use to have dinner with you guys, it was never silent. We use to laugh and make jokes. Now it's not like that anymore" I said getting upset. He gave me a hug and kissed the top of my head. "Ariel, don't say that, you're not the reason that's happening" he said while rubbing my back. "Then why is it happening Jai" I said looking at him. "It's because Mom is upset at Beau and when she is upset, no one has fun when my mom is upset and she gets mad when we joke around so we just sit in silent when we're at the table" he said. I just sat there, feeling stupid after all he just said. "No one told me this, I feel so stupid" I said slapping my forehead with my hand. "Do you feel better knowing that it is not your fault" Jai said smiling at me. "Yea, a whole lot" I said smiling back at him. "Hey Jai, where's Luke?" I questioned. "Oh, he left" he said while checking his phone. "Why?" I asked. "We'll when you left, he was going to go after you but Mom said no,not until he finished his food and they got into an argument and he left" Jai said. I just shook my head. "Another thing that I have ruined" I mumbled. "You didn't ruin anything, it was just a fight about food" he said. "And about me" I said. "Ariel, stop beating yourself up, it's just that mom is stressed and when you weren't here, Luke didn't eat as much so that's why Mom wanted him to finish his food" Jai explained. I just shook my head. " I'm going to go find him ok" I said to Jai. He shook his head yes and went back to his phone. I hopped off the bed and went to go take a shower. I turned on the shower and put the water kinda hot to relax my body. I got in and washed my body and my red hair. I got out of the shower and went to the room to go change. I dropped my towel, then I heard something shuffle behind me. I looked behind me and saw Jai with his hands over his eyes. I picked up my towel and wrapped it around my body. "Don't worry I didn't see anything" Jai said with his hands still over his eyes. "You can look now" I said. He moved his hands slowly and opened his eyes. I pointed to the door telling him to get out. He nodded and he hopped off the bed and left. I locked the door and got dress in some long black skinny jeans, neon blue converse, and a blue shirt that said "Janoskians" on it. " I walked out of the room and bump into someone. I looked up to see who it is and noticed it was Beau. "Watch where you're going bitch" was all he said. I rolled my eyes and walked past him. "By the way I am telling Luke what happened between you and Jai" Beau said with an evil grin. "You think he is going to believe you" I said. "Why wouldn't he, I'm his brother" Beau said. "Yea but it's two true stories against one" was all I said and walked down the hallway into Gina's room. I knocked and heard her say "come in". I entered the room and sat on her bed. "Hey Gina, sorry about everything that I have caused" I said looking down at her floor. "Aww hun, you're not causing all this, it's just everyone has been really stressed lately and when we are all stress, we fight with each other." All I did was shook my head. "We'll I'm going to go look for Luke" I said. "Ok and when you find him, tell him that I said sorry" she said. I nodded and left to go find Luke

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