On The Edge

Chapter Twenty Three.

Jason's POV

I yawned as I watched Blaine and Cailen play video games, Cailen had warmed up to him, a lot, a whole suspicious lot. I had taken a peep out the window and the snow was receding but I wasn't in the mood to leave, I liked playing family, even if we weren't a real family I looked at Altair, if we were a family, she'd be more like me, we were both quiet, well not quiet, more like calm, Cailen and Blaine had more energy, Cailen's energy manifested in his activeness and Blaine was in his arrogance, "Cailen, playing all day isn't good for your health, take Altair to the kitchen and make for the four of us sandwiches."

"why does Altair need to come along? I can make it myself."

"besides this is Assassin's creed, we are almost winning." Blaine said, I can't believe he's fun dad, he dots on them too much, I swear yesterday he almost agreed to buy Cailen a private plane like his own, he obviously has money to throw around, "you're a vegetarian, I want a chicken sandwich and you won't make me one so teach Altair how to make me one."

"ok." Hr said bite still went on playing game with Blaine, "now, Cailen!!"

"spoilsport. " Blaine pouted at me as Cailen dropped the game pad and left, I stuck my tongue at him, "serves you right." He just laughed and came to sit by me, no, he sat down and then pulled me into his laps. "what are you doing?"

"loosen up, Jason." As if to help me loosen, he kissed me, ON THE LIPS!!! It was a soft kiss but still potent enough to send tingles all Over my skin, "you have beautiful lips, didn't you ever play games as a kid?"

"games? No. But pranks I played a lot."

"I could already guess you were a mischievous child, threw a lot of tantrums did you?" He had a fond smile as he said that.

"not really, I was too busy acting to play pranks, my dad was a con man after all, it makes him a great actor, I learnt from the best."

"oh." He looked rather remorseful, did he think...?

"I didn't mean. Those type of pranks. Jaz and I were always pulling pranks on my dad's lovers, we hated them, " I realised something then, "I guess dad always picked horrible people whom you could say deserved it to con. There was this lady, a hair model, she used to beat up her dog, that was cruel, I had no idea why she kept it if she hated it, so Jaz and I put shaving cream in her shampoo, then we distracted her from her shower for like an hour, when she finally washed her hair, it all came off, needless to say she was mad, then dad tookher money and our dog and gave us, it was ours for five years."

Blaine smiled but it was bitter instead of sweet, "I wish my childhood was half as good."

Realization hit so fast I felt stupid for not seeing it earlier, "you were abused, weren't you?"

Blaine looked at me in shook, "how did you... know?"

"the way you look, I had a friend, he was abused for years, when he was finally saved and moved to a foster home with good folks, he couldn't cope very well and when he was raped shortly after, he killed himself." I explained, "he had that look all the time."

Blaine didn't talk for a while and I didn't speak either, I didn't want to push him, "it started when I was six, my dad and uncle were looking for ways to destroy each other and have my mum so I was left alone, my uncle taught the best way to get back at my dad was to..." He didn't have to go on, I got it, was that why he hated gays? "

"by the time I was ten, Arlena came along, I adored her, my baby sister, she was perfect. I had threatened my uncle that I'd go to the police if he carried on, so he left me, by then I was pretty much running the company myself, my uncle had a gambling addiction and he squandered his inheritance, he came to me to ask for money, I told him there was none, he told me he had a way to make more," I was dreading this story, "he knew people, men and women who preferred young boys." Preferred? What a way to put it, "I refused. He said he would take Arlena, that there were people more than willing to have a little girl, he just had to wait a little, so I let him."

"you had no choice."

"I had no one, no one loved me enough to help me, not my parents, no one." My heart broke for him, it was so cruel that there were so many children like him with no one, they hadn't done anything wrong, he hadn't done anything wrong, he was a kid caught in the crossfire of life. "you can have me now." I told him putting my hand in he's, "I'll protect you and I won't hurt you." He wasn't mean and cruel, he was just broken, badly broken. He was a beautiful but damaged soul and I wanted to help him, let me in my heart begged with my eyes,.his eyes were so cold I wondered what he could be thinking, it was hard to tell, he had a wall in his eyes that never showed what he thought, almost never. "I can help." I can heal, I reached out and touched his cheek, he didn't try to stop me, I took that as a good sign and leaned in for a kiss, maybe I could help, maybe just maybe there is hope for this love story, maybe he could love me....

We were so close I could feel his breath on my lips then I heard voices, "Mr Alessandro. Mr Alessandro", reality had caught up with us, suddenly he pushed me aside like I had a virus, "Angelo?" It was his men obviously looking for him, I reached out to touch him but he redrew from me, "I'm in here." A second later, like ten big guys entered my living room the Blaine I had known for the past few days was gone, in his place was a stranger, he started conversing with his men, I just sat there and watched, Altair and Cailen came out of the kitchen carrying sandwiches on a tray. "if you have anything, go pick it, we're leaving." He said to Altair, her eyes filled with panic as she looked at me.

"she can't go." I protested.

"why not?" He asked sharply. I opened my mouth to answer but I had no words, she wasn't my daughter, she was no one to me, I had no rights.to her.

"I don't want to go." Altair protested, "I want to stay with Jason and Cailen." She was close to tears now.

"I'm sorry, your father wants you." Blaine said, he turned to his men and dismissed them, "wait outside."

"why can't I stay?" Altair begged, "please let me stay!!!"

"I'm sorry, Altair, I have no choice, I can't keep a child from her parents."

"Blaine, let's talk." I moved towards him.

"look." He held up a hand and I stopped, "this was a mistake, I forgot for a while who I am, those guys are a wake up call."

"to what?"

"I'm not gay, I can't be gay." My heart froze really, how could everything go so wrong so fast? "come and pick up your stuff from my place later."

The hardest part was letting Altair walk out the door, she looked so tiny and miserable, Cailen looked at me as if I had caused this, and ran to his room. Maybe I had, I wasn't good enough for Blaine to love, I'm not good enough to stop Altair leaving or my son hurting, whoever said everything that can go wrong will go wrong at the worst time was dead on, until I was sitting on the floor crying and my sister walked in, "Jaz?" Was I dreaming?**********************************Author: you don't know what you have till you lose it, I hope Blaine doesn't learn that the hard way. That my dears is Jasmine, pretty cute. vote and comment even if it's to hate on those you... well hate.