On The Edge

Chapter Thirty Three

I’d rather die than kill myself

Cailen’s POV

The big men with big guns had shot grandpa and were shooting at daddy, grandpa fell on the ground, Blaine was screaming. His voice was really loud and cracking, like he wanted to cry, I wanted my daddy!!! I’m so scared. ‘’Cailen, go back!’’ daddy screamed. I can't stop running, I want my daddy, they’ll shit daddy, then daddy’s leg hit a stone and he fell and hit his head, ‘’daddy!!!’’ I screamed so many stones everywhere, I ran to daddy, the men came out of the car and were running to me and daddy, I sat on the ground next to daddy, they were shooting at us, no they were shooting at Blaine and Altair, I am screaming, I am crying. I hold daddy, I’m so scared. The men come to me and carry me, I hold daddy, I won’t let go of him. Daddy isn’t moving, they are taking us to the car, Blaine is moving towards us, ‘’Cailen!!! Jason!!!’’ David, Blaine’s father is shooting back at them.

‘’padre!!!’’ I didn’t mean to call him that; I hope he doesn’t hate it like he hated GA, I close my eyes and I sleep.

BLAINE’S POV

‘’FUCK IT!!!’’ I want to scream so badly, fuck it all to hell, I heard someone breathing very loudly, hyperventilating, it takes me a while to realize the loud deep panicked breaths are coming from me, ‘’David is by my side, ‘’breath son, slowly, we’ll get them back.’’ I lean against the wall for support as he rubs my back, I had a panic attack or I’m having one right now. I can't breathe, I feel like my heart is running on an engine, there’s a deep constant ache there like I’ve just lost something, I pull up my sleeve up and do the only thing I know will pull me back to reality, I bite myself… hard.

‘’what the fuck?’’ David exclaims beside me trying to pull my hand from my mouth but I ignore him and bite harder until I taste blood, the pain is numbing and a perfect contrast to the tempest of emotions brewing in me, soon I feel calm and collected with blood dripping down my arm, I drop it and David snatches it up immediately, ‘’what the fuck do you think you are doing?’’ he examines the cut. ‘’I’m fine, ignore it. They shoot Michael.’’

‘’are you serious?’’ he drops my hand and pulls back from me, he looks worried. ‘’he’s on the beach.’’ He moves away from me quickly.

‘’Blaine!!!’’ it’s Jasmine, behind her is Arlena, she (being Arlena) runs to me hugging me tightly, ‘’are you okay? We heard gunshots.’’

‘’I’m fine.’’ I looked past her at Jasmine who was looking around, clearly for her twin, ‘’they took him.’’ I calmly informed her, ‘’and Cailen, and they shoot your dad.’’

‘’what?’’ the look in Jasmine’s eyes is probably the most vulnerable I’d ever see, they were tears in her eyes as she looked out to the beach where David sat on the beach cradling Michael’s body. Arlena was out of my arms and holding Jasmine in a second.

‘’we’ll get them back.’’ She whispered to her.

‘’like hell we will.’’ It was Mrs. K. she looked piss as hell, ‘’is this your bitch of an ex again?’’ she paused, ‘’when I find her, I swear I’m going to skin her alive, I’ll cut her ears off and feed them to her, then I’ll drag her body on the road.’’ If it wasn’t for the cold hard look in her eyes and for the seriousness of the situation, I’d have thought she was joking.

‘’is daddy and Cailen going to be okay?’’ I had forgotten that Altair was around and apparently so had Mrs. K from the way she grimaced, I bent down and picked her, ‘’they are going to be okay; I’ll find them and bring them back. I swear.’’ I hadn’t asked for this, for Jason and Cailen to waltz into my life and turn it around, but I thanked the stars every day that they had and I would rather die than let them be waltz out of my life. ‘’they’ll be back.’