It's something that always gnaws away at me
As I recall a page in my not-so-glowing history
I shudder, chilled by the memory
I'm not in the least surprised that I find it hard to believe
Time may be for healing
But it's no match for this silent disease
I know that only one thing can cure me
After the last time, I'd said it was the end
And yet I've fallen in love again
Spellbound by another angel who is heaven sent
However, there are still fragments of the old that I can't forget
Parts of the past that have never left
When pieced together they form my greatest regrets
We never experienced the wonderful bliss of a single kiss
I never held her hand
Never truly proved that I was the right man
We would never feel the connection of an honest touch
Inspired by what we called real love
Even then all the signs said that I wasn't good enough
This is what I need to put right
I have no real purpose otherwise
And until I do that past will continue to plague my mind
I still haven't seen your face after all this time
I'm beginning to wonder if I'm reading the same signs
I've almost lost you once before
So there still may be every chance that you'll walk
I'm scared by that thought
The truth is that until I break those barriers
I can't say that we're a success
I want us to be happy in the end
Maybe enjoying life in seventh heaven
Though I must confess
That the doubts will linger on in my head
The constant fear of making the same mistakes
Feeling the same crushing pain
Of not being able to see your beautiful face
And having to watch everything we have fade away
I know I must seize that day
And I can only hope you'll stay
Because until then I can't forget
And I won't be able to lay this demon to rest