People often say when things go wrong
Take a good look at yourself in the mirror
And consider what you see
My answer
Reality
The real me
The fucked up Fifty Shades of Mayberry
I see the hospital incubator housing a tiny baby
Who would soon begin a lifelong battle with Cerebral Palsy
I see the young ten year old boy
Who for years was haunted by the memory
Of his own father's hand around his throat
As he looked into those wide, piercing eyes
And prayed silently
Begging for mercy
I see the terrible teen who destroyed his first love
Injecting his poison slowly
And breaking her down piece by piece
I see the expert in breaking hearts
The innocent proven guilty
By the damning evidence
Of tearing his family apart
I see the prisoner shackled in chains
Paying the ultimate price for his evil little word game
As the voice in his head would say
"You only have yourself to blame."
I see the serial offender who makes mistake after mistake
The guy who would just stand by
And watch everything he ever wanted go up in flames
Wherever he goes the light seems to fade
I see the man who promised her he loved her so
Before abandoning her
And leaving another innocent girl out in the cold
I see a stranger confined to the outside
Leading a deservedly lonely life
A man now at an all-time low
Making a living in the shadows
The evil, the poison, the pain and the heart break
All of which I was the one to make
The devastation, deceit and unprecedented deception
I see it all staring back at me
In my reflection
