Falling For The Opposite

25• What Did I Do? Prt 2

Not really sure how to feel about it

Something in the way you move

Makes me feel like

I can't live without you

And it takes me all the way

I want you to stay

Stay
RIHANNA ft. MIKKY EKKO



Jacob's POV

I smoke and drink a lot when I'm angry. Or sad. Or maybe depressed. Yep, that's the word for how I'm feeling now. I need Ana in my life. But I failed my duty to protect her from those fuck-ups.

They put their hands on her. They hurt her. And she left me. Alone and lost. I knew from the day she said yes to me that this wasn't going to end well. But life is all about taking risks for those who you care about.

She was everything to me. It wasn't just about the sex when it came to her. She made me happy. For once in shitty, miserable life. I wasn't perfect. I didn't even go to school. But all that didn't matter to me once she was here; wrapped in my arms or her lips against mines.

I never beg a girl to stay with me. I'll ask once if I really like them but that's it. But I begged her. Over and over. For the days that she's been gone out my life, her face never left my mind. I dreamed of her touch. I dreamed of my body against hers. I dreamed of her. What the fuck have I come to? I never dreamed of a girl. But with Ana it was different. I knew that I would never be able to compare her to another girl. Ever. She wasn't like other girls. She wasn't normal. She was the best thing that ever happened to me. She was special. And she still is.

I ruffled my messy hair and wiped my red, tired eyes. I went into the shower, scorching hot water, and stood there. Allowing the water to shoot into my scalp like pellets.

I punched the wall. Then punched it again. I kept punching it until the pain became irresistible. I looked at my bruised knuckles. My hand wasn't broken, luckily.

I got out the shower and got dressed to leave the house for a smoke. I walked to the abandoned building I took Ana when we first kissed. I sat on the roof and smoked non stop. I nearly went through a whole pack. This is what depression brings me. I miss Ana. I need her back. I'm willing to do anything just to have her back into my arms. Just to know that she's my girl again.

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Awwww :'( , Jacob is being all mushy and sweet. What does that show us? He misses her like crazy. He really cares about her. What will he do? What will he do to get her back?