Falling For The Opposite

26• Thinking 'Bout You

A tornado flew around

My room before you came

Excuse the mess it made

It usually doesn't rain in

Southern California

Much like Arizona

My eyes don't shed tears

But girl you know

I been think 'bout you

Oo na na na

Thinking 'Bout You

FRANK OCEAN

Ana's POV

A few more days since me and Jacob parted as each day I become more and more guilty. I rewind from the time I said its over and replay it over and over again.

I have too much pride to go and apologize. To go and beg for him back. But I don't think I can handle him being gone. Im becoming more and more distant from my family and friends.

Bree and Dean have been supporting me. Bringing me two tubs of French Vanilla ice cream a day. Gosh I love them.

But a spoonful of Vanilla goodness isn't enough for me to feel better. The more I try to cope, the more I feel guilty. I decide to leave the house, without anyone knowing. I grabbed my jacket and left.

I headed to a place I never thought I'd be going. To the abandoned building we went to. I snuck in pass all the punk people and headed upstairs to the roof. When I got there, I saw a silhouette of a person in the shining sunlight.

I turned on my heels but I stopped when I heard the sound of my name being called. I turned around to see who it was. That silhouette figure was...Jacob.

I stopped in my tracks, my feet rooted to the ground. I didn't know what to do. I guess my plan was to stay absolutely still. "Ana, what're you doing here?" He asks. Has he been...crying?

"I...I uh... I just wanted to uh...clear my head." I manage to get out. He steps closer to me and rubs his eyes.

"It's fine." He says. "Ana please-" I cut him off.

"Jacob, I'm sorry. I didn't mean to hurt you. I miss you so much. I miss us. It's just..."

"It's just what? Ana I want to be with you. I'll do whatever it takes to make you safe again." He says.

"I just don't know. I'm afraid." I say with a sigh.

"Afraid of what?" He asks.

"Afraid." I say, tears rolling down my apple red cheeks. His hand his brought up to my face and his thumb wipes away the tear.

"Ana I really like you. And I want to be with you." He says. Great. It's just likes. Not love. He doesn't love me like I love him.

"And that's the thing Jacob. I love you." I blurt. I didn't know what happened. I couldn't believe I just said that. It was like word vomit.

"I loved you from the day we had sex at my party. I knew that whatever it took, I would want you in my life for as long as we live. I don't just love you Jacob. I'm IN love with you." Yup, word vomit.

I felt my face become pale and my body become weak. I thought I was going to faint. My feet were no longer rooted to the ground. Instead, they were running, as fast as possible, down the stairs and all the way back to my house.

I got back to my room and slammed my door shut. I might look like an idiot running home to cry but I didn't know what to say. I didn't know what to DO.

I held the pillow over my face and just let my tears spring from my eyes. I didn't bother answering the door once Damon came knocking. He begged for me to open the door but my body paralyzed me. It held me on my bed. It held the pillow to my face. And it forced the tears out of my eyes. How could this be happening. Why am I behaving like this? Why is this happening?

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What do you think? It's pretty sad actually how torn up they are about this. And was Jacob really crying? Damn! And Ana going crazy? That's a first. So leave comments and vote ppl.