addicted ↭ kth ; jjg

: IX :

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[jjg]

I woke up on my stomach, feeling a bit lightheaded. My vision is blurred and all I could see is walls of brilliant cadmium red as it encircles me. I tried to stop the little thumpings in my head as I close my eyes and massage my temples.

A quiet nothingness can be heard and it is very much exhausting me. Have you ever felt so tired even by just laying down and doing nothing? Because I always have.

I wish I could at least have a pet to play with but no, I do not have one. And I would pretty much brag about this house if only I have friends.

The clock reads 13:06 and my stomach is growling. But let's sleep some more, shall we?

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I went out to bike as soon as I finished my lunch, but just as I hopped on my bicycle did I notice that it was about to rain. Sighing to myself and too tired to go back inside, I drove off.

I passed through many stores, eyeing the people happily chatting inside. How could they be so happy if one screams out to be noticed? Just like the sky who cries, people will leave. People wouldn't care about it. And people will only notice it if it's beautiful.

If I stay, what would happen? Will it stop crying? Or does it want a company?

Of course it wants a company.

I stopped on a bridge and gazes at the gray sky above, my left hand catching the little droplets. But the droplets were too much to hold, dripping down as soon as it fills up my hand.

And just like the agony inside of me, the tears that welled up in my eyes, they are too much to hold.

"The thick color of a rainy day in Seoul / I still can't fall asleep as I fade away / The rain stops and the reflection in the puddle / I see myself looking more miserable today," singing an old favorite song, my heart throbbed, wanting to be noticed. Only having me to do so. Only having me to try to calm it down.

Not so long after, a guy in a dark hoody shared me his umbrella and spoke, "Your emotion is so strong, but it was hard finding you."

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